This Peace

I was so lost
I waved it off again
turned my tail
and shook my head
a past that my mind never fed

It wasn't long
before I caught myself
looking closely at myself
finding things I put away

This ice
keeps
stopping me cold
I can't wait for the day
I thaw and walk it off,
This fire
keeps
burning so brightly
I can't see your face
chameleo with the empty space

There was a song
I heard when I was young
shyly in my room I sung
quiet teeth against my tongue

It took a lot
to let me sing aloud
get my head
out of the clouds
to see that no one gave a crap

This ice
keeps
stopping me cold
I can't wait for the day
I thaw and walk it off,
This fire
keeps
burning so brightly
I can't see your face
chameleo with the empty space

My life made sense
when finally you arrived
realized I was deprived
doubt and darkness
back to life

My courage rotting,
blood was clotting hard
in my brain where I was scarred
you never played
the caring card

This ice
keeps
stopping me cold
I can't wait for the day
I thaw and walk it off,
This fire
keeps
burning so brightly
I can't see your face
chameleo with the empty space

It took so many years
getting over mental fears
a collaborative loneliness

I only wish I had more time to think
push our limits to the brink
until we can
make up our minds

This ice
and this fire
will be better,

This time