I Just Wanna Be Blank for Once;

I don't want to have any words
Any feelings to express.
I want to roll over your thoughts
And not have to picture you...
You with her.
What took you a year to say to me...
You could establish in only a minute;
A day holding her.
I knew she was after you from the moment;
But I trusted you.
Did you trust me?

And how can you say it like it was nothing?
Like you never meant it,
Like it meant nothing to you
And I was never the victim of this.
It was like you hit me;
knocked me out cold with shock.
I didn't feel anything because
You struck me out of place.
IT WASN'T YOUR PLACE

Wasn't it just days ago,
That I said I'd be waiting for your return?
Was it only yesterday
We were happy.
But you never had it at all.

YOU ARE STRANGE AND FOREIGN TO ME NOW

And this is the only way I know how.
What might seem a awaste to write about you
Is only my anger, my sadness, my every emotion
All coming out at once;
Piece by piece.

I FELL ASLEEP LAST NIGHT HIGH ON MY REVENGE.