I want.

I want to be someone better than this mess.
I want to be loved by someone who means it.
I want a family who loves me back.
I want a tragedy, that gets fixed real fast.

I want to not fear, the sea, ocean and planes.
I want to climb things like, mountain ranges.
I want to be set free someday.
I want to be carried away in the worst way.

I want the simple things, that i cannot have:
A family, home, love, and care.
What are the other options?
I find no others.
I find myself struggling to breath every day in nothing but my own room.
I need to set myself free.
Or I'll end up suffocating, and killing me.
I think I'll run away to New York,
Find one of my cousins, and ask them to care for me.
I pray they say yes, and will take my side.
I'll go far away, and provide for my ambitions.

I want to cry out a river of tears.
I want to let go of all my fears.
I want to live in a family of love.
I want to be loved by someone who means it.
I want to be held by him every night.
In his arms, he whispers "Sleep Tight."

Is there nothing that i can do?
To get me closer to being you?
You're so perfect, so pretty, it's unfair.
Take away this ugly, please take it far away!
No one wants this, no one needs this.
Ugly skin, body, face, and height, What's there to me? Oh, my puke brown eyes!

I knew I am just being used..
Maybe I wont deny it someday.
Is it so much that i ask for a little love?
Just a little, is all i am asking for.
Don't tell me it's stupid, Lame, or anything!
You don't know how it is, to feel what I feel.

I know there are others, who have it much worse.
But right now, I'm trying to escape entering a hearse.
I know you might have so many things worse than me,
But quite frankly, "I don't give a damn."
You might have it worse, but i have it just as bad.
Hell! We can be together, forever, Sad!

I want so many things in life.
the joys the pleasures,
The money and finances.
The family of three, two or one.
A husband, a boyfriend, or none of the above.
I want my kids to love me too.
I want them to hug me,
and say, "I love you."