79
is
the
point
of
no
return
where
i'm
at.
that's
what
they
want
to
tell
me.
but
what
do
these
doctors
know?
and why?
the #79?
Author notes
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just weighed in at 82 and 3/4 ounces... now fainting.
not enough energy to even throw up now. everyone's here. doctors are goin g to have to take me off morphine very soon jackie told me. also been told that if my weight reaches below 80 pounds that because of that alone i will deteriorate very fast after that...
sandra's holding my hand ver softly because of the skin. almos non left no w an hurts to type
the mood is really dark in here right now. no one is saying anything, and everyone's looking at me. my sisters are crying rihgt now, and so am i.
i want to write at least three m ore poems before i die...
i dont' know for sur, and no one will tell me...
but i dont realll y think i have as long as i think i might have to live. but im ready.
my friends have been lighting candles for the last two hours and arranging the cards and flowers and stuff.
sandra, this morning read to me from the bible.
a priest came in today to read me the last rights and i got pretty emotional about it. so did mom.
am losing sight in left eye.
still bleeding and the surgeries to the sores i don' t think workd at all. infected n wont heal
just wanted to hug my son today....
all i thought about...
was him.
i will leave my page to sandra to continue with my son Del. so he will start right her at ap. sandra will also let everyone know when ive passed. i showed her everything about the site i know of and she already has spoken to some of you great poets!!
sorry everyone, ther just isnt any way aroun dthis.
just wantd all of you 2 know I Love U!!!!
Always u'll B in my heart and Prayers forevr.
brian
Please tell me what you think
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oh. wow.
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God bless you
May the Savior hold all who knew this person in the palm of His hand. This is heart-wrenching and so touching.
Wolfie -
I pray that you are at peace with the angels. Your writing has touched my soul.
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Blessed be...
Dear Brian,
My heartfelt hugs come to you in your time of pain and suffering. I'm so sorry you are going through this. Just believe in the peace that will be your blessing. Such a beautiful and indescribable peace.
I send you love, and many regrets that I did not know you before now. Even this poem is profound in its way, and I look forward to reading more...
This is the sadddest hood-wink I've ever done...
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Suppose - Hoodwink - just hope this is not a joke....
Brian you are such a love. xx god bless and god speed you to a much better place. xx Love from England is on it's way to you so fast, it should be there B4 I've finished typing. xx -
Hood Wink
This is so very sad and heartfelt... This seems so difficult for you and all those you hold dear and to still be able to think of us, as in the poetry community, makes you one of a kind my friend.
Good luck in recovery and many best wishes to you!
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Hood-Wink!
Brian you are so strong to be writing this, I have never spoken to you or read any of your beautiful poems until today, but I want you to know you are already in my heart, I pray right for your suffering to ease and will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers
Much love sent your way
~Lilac~
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You've Been Hood-winked!
I write this with tears spilling. I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling. Your author's notes have touched my heart as much as the profound words in your poem. You have a true gift for making your words connect with the reader. Though I don't know you, dear poet, you are in my thoughts and I will pray for you. With much love and admiration...
~Lori
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dont be afraid my friend for you will not be alone and one day you will be with your loved ones again,
your family will be welcomed with open hearts and arms.
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Hood-wink!
This is such a heartbreaking write together with the author note... I have been sitting here crying for I don't know how long and read this again and again...
I am so sorry your son can't be near you right now when you need hims so much...
You have a unique writing style, so different from all I've seen before...
I'm sending loads of loving hugs your way!
I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers... I wish I'd got to know you earlier...
Annie
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we will miss you sweetie but we know that you are going to a better place with less pain and no troubles...where you will be able to look down on Del and watch over him better than you might have been able to here on earth even if he was right by your side...be brave young one...for there is a much better place that you shall see very soon...with loved ones and friends near by...peace be with you and when you see God tell him i said hi...
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Reaching out through cyberspace...
and smiling at you and mentally very gently hugging you! You are a beautiful person and so brave.
Closing the door to one place means opening it to another and you are on the threshold of the greatest event in life. We have been privileged to know you. I shall enjoy reading your poetry and I am confident it will inspire me . Thank you for sharing your talent with us. 
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How sad.... I just want to cry....
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I'm speechless. I'm very glad I was able to talk to such a wonderful person on here. You are in my families thoughts and prayers.
-Jessica
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i'm so sorry for you
i'll keep you in my prayers forever and ever
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your in my prayers my dear friend
I will meet you in heaven one day my dear friend
Love
Sean
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Brian take care honey and know that we all feel for you and your family... Hugs to you honey
with love from
Jen
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Aw, so very sad. I'll miss your poetry. Hope you find peace within the interstellar stars in the night sky. I'll miss your writes on this site. ):
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i just thought i might share some comforing scriptures with you. perhaps you or one of your family members can look them up and read them.
Revelation 21:3,4
Isaiah 33:24, 35:5,6
Psalms 34:6,18,19
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may you fly with the best of them... god bless you xxxx
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