Heather Jones...

you've been my reason, but the only reasons that you have are your own.
you've been my inspiration and i beleive that i've reaped all that i can.
beautiful as you are it just can't matter anymore.
beautfiul as you feel, i can't let myself be that weak.
you're beautiful.
and i hope that you always know it's so.
you're everything this heart has ever sought.
and even if it wasn't to be, i hope you take it with you when the years obesess about how you've treated them.
you can use me in your defense.
you can lean back on this when time refuses to be your crutch.
you can remember that you'll always be beautiful to me.
the purple sky makes it that much sadder to be alone when it seems you should be here.
but whatever reasons you harbor.
whatever purposes you nurture.
i only hope they grow to be all that you wish.
i only hope that they can hold you when nothing else is sure.
stay my friend if you can.
but do either of us believe the words we send in gentle esteem.
be a friend if it's within your means.
but do either of us really trust in the words we pledge out of neccessity.
in love there is no doubt.
but all else confounds me.
in need there can be no debate.
it plagues me always.
but will reality allow? these jaded hearts will not abide the dreams that we bleed.
make your solitude a bandage.
since that's all we can do.
make yourself believe that world is all you want and we'll both sit alone hoping for it to be so.
i'll sit here hoping that you'll never need more than you have.