When They Look At Me They See,
Happy, Loving, Cheerful, Beautiful,
[Its All Lies]
When I Look At Me I See,
Fat, Ugly, Depressed, Anorexic,
[So Far From Their Dream]
Starving The Night Away,
Please Rid Me Of My Pain,
[Make Me Disappear]
And I Pray To God,
Don't Let Me Gain,
Just Rid Me Of This Pain,
[Why Did He Give Me This Stain]
I Hide This Side Of Me,
They Never Understand,
My Sickly-Sweet Plans,
[To Drop 20lbs By Grad]
Why Must Life Be So Sad,
And Being Thin,
A Sick Goal,
When Getting There Leaves Our Heart With Holes,
Leaving Lovers With Broken Souls.
But I Don't Want That For You,
Can't You See,
[I'm Whispering To You]
I Hide Me,
Because I Love You,
I Never Want You To See My Pain,
What Would You Gain,
Just Apart Of My Stain?
But This Is My Other Side,
[Oh So Dark]
That I Don't Want You To See,
The One Who Thinks,
That You Wouldn't Understand,
The Secret I Can't Stand.
[Please Reach Out Your Hand]
You Wonder Why..
How I Could Have Possibly Got This Way,
[Its Oh So Hard To Say]
But I Can't Run From It Anymore,
And I'll Fall Apart Before You,
Theres Nothing Else To Do,
[I Have To Tell You]
On Those Cold Dark Days,
Those Boys Stole My Heart,
And They Ripped It Apart,
[Please Pick Up The Pieces]
I Said No,
But They Felt Anyways,
And Took My Heart Away,
My Life So Uncarinly Slain.
[Rescue Me Darling Please]
But They Stand By,
Watching Me As I Cry
What Will They Say When I Die?
[They Should Have Never Handed Me That Blade]
You're Too Late,
This Is My Only Escape,
This Life Is More Than I Can Take.
[Don't Try Stop Me, I Know You Won't]
But This Is Me,
The Side No One Understands,
The Side That Wanted A Helping Hand,
[I Reached Out But Only Felt Air]
Why Didn't You Care,
Just Stopping To Stare.?
[I'll Dig Your Eyes Out]
But I'm Dying Now,
I Hear Him Calling,
[I Won't Make A Sound]
He Finds Me On The Floor Anyways,
I See The Tears In His Eyes,
And He Runs For Help,
[I'm Fading Into Black]
What Drove Me To This?
The Other Side Concered,
Its Whispering Lies Won,
[I Will Never Again See The Sun]
But This Was The Side They Didn't Understand,
And The One That Did,
Is Holding Her Hand,
Now Here I Stand,
I'm Back At The Start,
With A Fresh Broken Heart,
And A Side That No One Understands.
Author notes
Contest Entry, and yes everything mentioned in the poem happened, i know i never told anyone on here what those guys did to me, i'm still trying to face it but i can't right now, but this burden has become numb to me as i deal with the bullshit people throw at me, well, thats all i can say...XxDeathxAngelxX thanks for holding this contest to help release these pent up feelings♥
A contest entry
- Empty and Pain-filled by Fallen Grace.
500 points, ended May 15, 2007, 20 entries
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well for me, writing about my past and present helps me dull the pain. great write...
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Your welcome, I'm glad that my contest has helped you release your feelings on what happened to you.
This poem is wonderful with the imagery. The rhyming was pretty good, too. I don't really have a favorite part because I like the poem as a whole but if I had to choose it would be this stanza:
"But I Don't Want That For You,
Can't You See,
[I'm Whispering To You]
I Hide Me,
Because I Love You,
I Never Want You To See My Pain,
What Would You Gain,
Just Apart Of My Stain?"
I like how you refer to your problems as a stain, thats very unique, I never heard that before.
Thank you for writing this for my contest, Good luck!
XxXKaela -
That was the best way to face it, to face the ghost of the past
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oh yah? well i'm planning on writing another poem on it, it will be way more graphic in the sense of what happened.*shudders* i dont even want to think about it until i actually write it.
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Wow, this is so deep and emotional. The imagery really sticks in the reader's mind. I loved this, awesome job and good luck.
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thanks hun
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