Letting You Go

I've seen you come and then leave my heart like nothing. I
didn't want you to leave. "a dog always returns to its vomit" as they say,
and in this case I'm the dog...I had to come back to you. Honestly...you
destroyed me, you were like a drug running through my veins. Show me how to
live without it...because I know it's useless. You can never teach an addict
to live without its consumption. I met a new drug, a new addiction...it was
something you were never able to give me. It was a drug with a side-effect
different to yours...happiness. I said I loved you but I never said I was
happy to.You were too busy with your own happiness to care enough about
mine. I don't need your empty intentions! Be happy! I don't care...I have
my own bottle-dose of happiness right here at my finger tips. I just take one and forget about you, but when I come back and I run out...shall I stay sober forever in thought of you? I just can't...it's impossible to survive with illusions...
sadness shall devour me...what will I do? If this is what I have to do in order to
let you go, then so be it...