My Dear Daughters,
I come to you with great remorse for making the wrong choice. Back then I thought It was right. But as time passed by I soon realized I abused, crushed and abandoned your loving and tender souls.
I am sorry for choosing an abusive love affair Instead of my children.
I am sorry for continually creating excuses for not being able to come see you or visit. For that matter, for abandoning the fruits of my womb.
I am sorry I was not truthful In explaining how my fiance forbid me to travel that distance with his vehicle because I did not have one of my own.
I am sorry for the hell I put you through that has damaged the trust and respect you no longer may have for your mom.
I am sorry for the torture your heart has felt In wondering why mom chose a man over her two jewels.
I take all responsibility In accepting that I allowed myself to be emotionally, mentally,and verbally abused Into abandoning you because of the views and desires of someone I lived with.
I Hope that since I have made the changes I have by walking away from that evil man who once had me In his chains that you can and will accept my apology.
I pray that you can and will find It within your hearts, souls, and minds to forgive me.
My only request is for us to find peace and forgiveness while we slowly mend our once shattered mother-daughter relationship. I promise you I will never choose a man over my children ever again. My two beautiful young girls will always come first.
Love, Mom
Author notes
Option 5e. An apology... is getting in the last word.
option 8: A moment in time i cried the most.
I have been a single mom for two years now and my relationship with my children is growing stronger everyday.
A contest entry
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i'm glad that you're building a strong relationship with yur daughters. have close family ties is so important! thanks for the entry!
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thanks for putting the option! i'll come back with a real comment later XD
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Oh, this was so good, so emotion packed. This reminds me of a book I once read, and that made me really appreciate my relationship with my own mother. Mothers are such a wonderful gift, and I am so glad that you know that now. I am also glad to hear about your relationship with your children. I admire your poem as well as your decisions. Thanks, KP
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Powerful piece of writing that you have penned here. Interesting to see the voice that you used coming out so strongly through the words. Also, an interesting style. Anthony.
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Heart-Felt
This is so sad, and very much from the heart. I'm glad to read in your author's notes that you have your daughters back now, and that your relationship with them is growing stronger.
I, too, was in an abusive relationship. My exhusband beat me pretty much the whole 4yrs I was married to him. I asked him for a trial seperation 2yrs into the marraige, because I wanted to go to marraige counseling, and for us to both go to individual counseling, and work out our issues together and our own issues apart. He said, fine, and went to the gas station and bought a newspaper to look for a job and an apartment. I was then working the 3:30-midnight shift at a factory that made computer boards, and at 2:30pm I started getting ready for work. I was in the main floor bathroom, and he cornered me, yelling at me, accusing me of having an affair, and that that was the reason I wanted a seperation, and then he started smacking me around. It rapidly escalated, I managed to get out of the bathroom and into the livingroom, he was throwing me around like a ragdoll, throwing me into walls, hitting me, I tried to get out the door but he locked it, and cornered me in the entry way by the stairs that led upstairs. It was there that he put my head through the wall, and pushed me down to the floor, and began strangling me. I somehow turned my head sideways and bit him as hard as I could, and pushed him off of me, and got out of the door. I ran acoss the street, and the neighbor called the police. When the police came, I returned to our home, and when the cuffed him, he said, she bit me, see? And showed them his arm. I showed them where he put my head through the wall, and he said I must have "slipped on the rug". Yeah. Well, since I left a mark on him, the cops said that either they had to arrest me too, or let us both go. I said I would rather be in jail than at home with him, at least in jail I would be safe. Since then, I've had 8 protection orders against him, he was indicted 2 times for 1st degree rape of a minor for what he did to my daughter, which I didn't find out about until 2yrs after the divorce, when my daughter felt safe enough to come forward, as he had took her favorite doll and slit the throat with a knife and told her that's what he'd do to me if she ever told. Both times he was indicted, it was dismissed about a year and a half later. That's B.S., or as I call it, SD justice.
I think I've rambled long enough! I wish you all the best in the future as you rebuild your relationship with your daughters, it's a long road, but one well worth it.-Monica
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To err is human, to forgive divine. To apologise is somewhere between the two. x
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I think apologizing does come between the two,but it takes courage, self-respect, and ownership of wrongdoing to admit the err. Many ppl will err and not apologize for hurting others. THANKS.
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Powerful
Your poem is felt... I was just cruisin' through looking at the contests... Wanted to take a peek to seee if anyone posted anything here... When I came in I started to read... I actual felt like you could be my mom talking to me... It is incrediably good... WOW.. I am simply amazed how powerful this is. Good job in my humble opinion!!! -
It a very tender write. I am glad you have gotten away form this man. Now you are making a better life for yourself and your children. This takes a great deal of courage to change. Healing takes time. Thank you for entering this heart felt write.
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i started to cry about three lines in. thank you for your entry and i wish you the best of luck in this contest. viyanna rosemarie
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TY, Viyanna.
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