You can blame it on me
I'm not grieving for you
You don't remember my name
But I don't really care
I'm tired of playing the game your way
Can I really lose control just once?
If we play very quiet
Then no one has to know
If I bring you down to defeat
I fear there will be nothing left of you
I don't live to breath you in anymore
Someday I'll forget your name too
The rules have been set by the monster alcohol
But rules are made to be broken
You know you're not the only one
Set me free to open my eyes
The darkness feels so wrong
All I see is you holding the dice
You're piecing every thought together now
Trying to find the words to make it right
This game has taken my darkest dreams
While you play them like a nursery rhyme
You play on my minds obsessions
I can't lose again, I can't bare it
I guess I'll have to change the rules
To make you see me run forever
From morning your intoxication
But I just can't say no to you
You pray on my cravings
I shouldn't let you talk to me so sweetly
I have to try to win this game
I can't breathe but I'll keep on going
You've drunk the lithium
And completely lost your mind
Now you can't say no to me
I've concord you completely
Fear is only in your mind
But let it take over now please
One day I will forget your name
You poor sweet innocent thing
I can't hear you through the bottle in your mouth
What did you say again?
You want to hate me?
But you're too drunk to see your mistakes aren't you?
Don't cling to me I can't fix you
Let go of me I can't be held down anymore
It's my turn to lose control
I never wanted to play so dirty
But you just couldn't drink enough
I can't let you lay me down this time
I have to just let you go
You'll never know the way
Your words have haunted me
I can't believe you'd say those things
To them and to me
You like to cause me so much pain
Your words are your weapons now aren't they
You play it all so cool like you don't give a damn
But I see right through your disguise
I'm addicted to you, you are my drug
But you're addicted to something else
I feel you in my dreams and I can't sleep
Don't scream at me anymore
I can't stand your inebriation
I know you're losing your mind
And you stand there and stare at me
Now I know I've won
You belong to me my lush of a prince
Who can you blame? Not me
The beautiful things I can't repair
Hate me for breathing with out you
I can't be like you, we aren't the same
I can't allow myself to care anymore
So stand there and stare at me all night lethargically
With that bottle in your hand
As I move around the room unbridled at your expense
Because……………..
I've WON
Author notes
this poem is personal to me. It's about being in a relationship with someone who has a serious drinking problem. And when they drink they become emotionally and vrbally abusive and sometimes even physical.
Option one
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- Dark and Depressing #2 by XHollowXEyesX.
750 points, ended June 18, 2007, 73 entries
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Wow the emotions the reader can feel in this write is so powerful. You can feel the struggle then your pulled in so deep you begin to share that struggle. Thanks for sharing this great write. BTW Im a gemeini too!
Rose
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WOW....
this is AMAZING....
leaving me speechless....absolutely speechless....
I don't know what to say...for I have a difficult time seeing through my tears...
Heidi
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Great
I thought this poem was amazing, i can relate to the content 100%. loved these lines;
'The beautiful things I can't repair
Hate me for breathing with out you'
I thought that was beautiful...Good luck in the contest xox
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wow, I can really tel that this piece is personal, the depth of emotion and detail in describing how you feel is overwhelming and so powerful.
this is truly a beautiful write about a horrible and dark time in your life.
thankyou for enterign and goodlcuk -
this is hreat felt I know it is. and that shit is hard no matter who it is in your life, good job
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I love this, I can really see that you're an Evanescence fan? I'm right, right? xD I love these lines, "The beautiful things I can't repair/ Hate me for breathing with out you/ I can't be like you, we aren't the same/ I can't allow myself to care anymore"
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this piece was very interesting. "I'm tired of playing the game your way" i just love that line. the fight is truly hard...my father has a drinking problem and he gets VERY mean so i understand this. i personally try to stay away from him when this happens. best of luck to you in your fight, and i hope that it all turns out well...
~bee
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Don't think I want to the play the game you are in these lines. Sounds like it could be alcoholism one is battleing here - that demon that breaks up families and causes such hardship for those who love and work with the person who has the disease.
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interesting. speaks of true addiction, and i thought that even before it came up in the poem. some people have a gift for manipulation.
One thing: "I can't lose again, I can't bare it" the correct word is "Bear" unless you meant to use it as a play on words.
nice write.
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