Forget

I tried to forget everything
forget the cries
and all the memories
But they only seemed to hide

It took me forever to do it
and now it all came back
with just one action
I just seem to be attacked

she told me what was to be done
and she told me when 
I tried to fight it
But it was a fight I couldnt win

I knew when they choose this
that everything would change
I knew I couldn't forget any longer
that it's not right to live in shame

I didn't want to see him
I so I stayed in my room
but my mother got angry
and I felt her wrath of doom

I ran away
only to find myself back here
I thought I was running from her
but really I was running to someone dear

all these years I tried to forget
and i thought I had won the battle
when really you were there
just hiding behind my shadow

I wish I could take it back
I know what I did was wrong
but I can't change anything
I forget for too long

I betrayed one who loved me
I betrayed this father of mine
and all I can do is cry
over this stone that shines


I can't tell you what I did was wrong
that would be unjust
it would only hurt you more
to learn that you didn't have my trust

I loved everything you did
and I forgot you
and all the things we shared
all the emotions so true

I thought it would hurt
I thought I would die
to remember you and how you loved me
so I just tried to hide

I know now that I can't hide
my father did what he could
I just wish he hadn't died
and I'll always rememeber him the way I should