I was the one who held you
right after you were born
the look in your eyes
squinting at me
so beautiful
so special
and all mine
I took you home and showed
you off to my friends
I held you
and spent as much time as I could
with you
Nine months later
I find myself at the
very hospital you were born at
sick again
but this time
there is nothing they can do
there you are
hooked up to all these machines
one is breathing for you
one is keeping your heartbeat
there are so many surrounding
your tiny body
can barely be seen
I pick you up
sitting there
I hold you
kiss you
and know that I have to do something
I never wanted to do
I have to let you die
for you, I had to let you go
I sit there
for hours, just holding you
They say to take my time
so I just sit there
with your tiny body in my arms
kissing you, telling you that I love you
the time comes, when I can stand it no more
I call the nurse, she calls the doctor
they unplug the machines
slowly you struggle to breathe
slowly your chest rises, then falls
you're fighting to breath
I can see the labored breathes
a few minutes pass
and I cry
holding you in my arms
you take a shallow breathe
the monitor makes a loud sound
they call it
the time of your death
11:00 pm, April 1st
and you are gone
Forever
© KeepingTheStars
Author notes
.....for a mother to hold her child as they die, and not being able to do anything about it, is not only the worse, but the cruelest thing any person could ever go through....
Written July 22nd, 2003
A contest entry
- Past Memories by SilverxXxShadow.
250 points, ended July 24, 2003, 27 entries
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Comments
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An excellent poem, full of emotions, I hope and pray it isn't true but if it is I pray that you find strength in knowing that for the short time you held your child, it felt your love. Good luck in the contest
Bertie -
wow this was a really... beautiful but sad poem i really hope i never have to feel that pain myself it must hurt. i hope you win this was great. good luck...
love
danielle -
THIS IS SOOO SAD!!!! I started crying during it. That would be the worst thing to ever experience...I can't even imagine how hard it would be. It must of been hard to write this, but I admire you for doing so. It shows much strength. This was a really nice, sad piece. Thank you for entering my contest...good luck.
~Shadow
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