Fucking you over

I said that I was dying being with you I never wanted it to be true
saw how it would break you inside make you want to end your life
that’s exactly what it did now I hate myself for ever hurting you
I wish I had never met you all I did was kill you slowly inside with every look

the tears you cried I wiped away but I couldn’t stop them from falling again
I loved you but it wasn't enough and things fell apart
look at everything I did trying to make things better only made them worse
now I’m sitting here trying to stop you from killing yourself and its all my doing

held you so close never wanted to let go
but I had to all it was doing was lying to your heart and I couldn't let it go on
you mean too much to me so when I knew it was something I couldn't fix I let the tears fall
told you the truth that the sky was to dark and that it was nothing that could have been fixed nothing you could have done its not your fault I know you think life hates you

but understand that life hates everyone the only way to go on is to fight everything that keeps you down write your songs and sing them turn it up till your ears want to bleed
just don’t let go or we’re all gone and there’s no hope for anything
I let you in and cared for you like I didn't think I could do before I met you
but you changed me and all I did was hurt you kill you bring you up and drop you
I fucking hate myself you have to know that’s true

I didn't want to keep lying to you kiss you and make you think something that wasn't true
so write down the hell that you live in and sing it to me, let it out, shout and scream
as your pick hits the strings making the sounds of pain and your broken heart beating
feel the vibrations sink into you and drink it up, live off of it just don't give up I beg you

I don't regret being with you the only thing I regret it hurting you
I loved kissing you holding you and making you close your eyes in ecstasy
tie you up and straddle you kiss you while the music played I would turn you on then let you go, not letting you know when I was going to touch you again played with your lust
made you beg for my lips again I loved it looking onto your perfect body
it was so toned and beautiful I loved it making you tense up till you had to let it go make sounds that I felt below they were so intoxicating

I took off my ring and put it on your finger it was a promise to know you forever
as long as you keep it on I won’t go anywhere always be there to hold you and understand
watch you play guitar and wipe away your tears, hold you when you feel like your falling
watch you drink yourself into a buzz not slow but quick the way you like it

all those moments that we spent talking together I will hold close forever
I wonder if all I can do is break you, hurt you, even when I love you
you want to die and you want me to die with you cause you don’ want to die alone
I swear at you “f*ck you” it would break your promise or was that a lie you told me

you call me morphine I think that’s perfect for me I bring you pain then take it all away so you want to die I'm addictive while doing nothing good for you in the long run
call out in the night wishing I was there with you
even though I hurt you, you still want me I'm like a drug so addicting

so if there’s one thing I want to say to you its never stop loving even though it hurts
your heart keeps you in pain but its the only thing worth living for
when all the pain goes away your heart will break it needs the pain so it can love even harder the next heart that it falls for as much as you think you won't fall again you will some other girls heart will trip you and you'll love again before you die I know this is true its the way life works even if it seems like its fucking with you

star shine so brightly