Confused.

I don't know whats going on here
Nothings on my mind
Just the echos of useless jumble
That have since been left behind
It seems doors are always closing,
Without one opening along
You told me you would help me
Well it's taking far too long
The night seems to bright
The day seems to dark
It seems my thoughts are on a holiday,
I need someone to help.
The only things that arent changing
Are my drawings and writings
Which stare back at me from what once was
When I actually understood who I was
And what I was here for
But now I'm not all so sure.
Because my brain has died
And my thoughts have run away
And taken everything I once loved with it
Making me want to die
No, Jaden, Please don't die
Stay alive with me forever
Just you and me.
We can get through this together
Just don't leave me alone with myself.
Please.
That's all I ask of you.
When I was alone for hours
Not being able to move from the couch
You were there
Why are you abandoning me now?
When I need you even more?
Please.
My brain will die without you there,
Implode without you holding it up.
Please..