too|m u c h

too much drugs} too much love}
too much hate] too much sorrow]
nobody's waiting for tomorrow <---
take a knife
take a gun
{cut off the lines}
embrace the after life
too much| too much|

of my selfishness...too much of my foolishness...
what can i offer you now?

late nights
spinning high
you between my thighs
sweating| bleeding
drunk on my| own ecastasy
clinging to you
praying to break through
{all the madness}
swallowing my sadness like an alcoholic
planting seeds of faith in you
that will never breathe
disappoint in you
disappoint in myself more so
a selfish lazy bitch
who blames God for all her troubles
it takes death
to make me wake up

too much drugs{ too much love}
wasting time on time
wasting myself doing nothing
but whoring
too much pain-too much sorrow
counting my church coins for tomorrow
devil's come to collect
every piece of my soul
suffocating on my own sins
reaper knocking at my door
counting the second sands until
I die
ready to embrace the after life

come my demons of misery
come my sadness, make love to me
die my angels of eternity
good-bye blissful dreams

burning in my dirty passion
God's mercy no longer compassionate
erase me from your memory
i am not worth loving

too much drugs{ too much} love|....
too much of me...me...me.

too much of having nothing at all
tired of watching myself fall.