Living Without Life

I sat up all night
Staring out the window
Into the misty sky
Visions of you
Flashing before
My tear stained eyes
My hands still shaking
Veins frozen in time
Memories from moments ago
Lingering in my mind

Still and silent
There's no depth anymore
Something missing from inside of me
Like a beach with a sand-less shore
My heart aches, my mouth runs dry
Everyone's telling me that I have to
Push this aside

But I'm stuck
In a suddenly direction-less world
I'm scared and alone even though
I'm surrounded by love

I know I won't feel this way forever
Eventually I will accept your being gone
But right now I'm trying to stand tall
And I'm working my way through
I don't know what to do without you
So for now I'm living without life

I think about us together
Now shattered pieces of my past
All of our fights and make ups
I really wish that embrace hadn't been our last

I'm so sorry for all the harsh words I said
I never meant to hurt you and
I know you never wanted to see me cry
We both pained each other inevitably
But I'd go through it all again
To have you back with me