Me…Black Thought
I have been in drama and pain since I was a young child
I ran around like I was the shyt man I ran wild
I would run and fall but I wouldn’t cry
Was told when I was little by the time I was 18 I would surely die
Was told that I was worthless
Told I wasn’t nothing
Just a bastard child and I wouldn’t amount nothing
That was all at the age of eight
But something inside me told I’d be great
By the age of twelve I truly thought I was grown
I could do what I want I could make it on my own
I had a hustler mentality
I had to get dat gwap…so I had rocks in ma socks
Ma brother hiding glocks in my toy box
By the age of fourteen I was a bad thing
Had a banging as body I was a young thing
Dudes started to holla and it felt good
I’m sorry to say it but I was the finest thing in da hood
I was lookin great and smellin right
And I was too fly for a chick fight
I was stay out all night in the streets of Queens
Just to see the niggas that were wantin me
Then I started smoking weed
The Jamaican in me made me wanna smoke dem trees
Kell was forever high and the way I was feelin I was forever fly
Being that way lead me into trouble
Me bein fast started to knock ma hustle
Me thinking I was the shyt sealed my fate
And by the age of fourteen I was raped
By the age of fifteen ma life was done
My brother was dead…my innocence taken
I was no longer number one
I moved from New York and went to Da port
Aka Bridgeport which was like a smaller New York
I lived with people who said the cared…they beat me down
And just left me there
By the age of sixteen I never dreamed that I would have so much pain
Standin on da block slangin cocaine
Crazy in love wit a dude I met when I was fifteen
He was my world and he meant everything to me
My people told me dat I couldn’t see him
I did it anyway and I needed him
Finally I got fed up wit da drama
So I packed up ma shyt and didn’t tell ma mama
I ran away for…”o” about the third time
This time it was…to the Michigan Line
I went to Detroit on a 19 hour bus ride
All alone…no food and not a damn dime
The police caught me… I was put in foster care
No one came to get me right away so I guess they didn’t care
I didn’t either cuz fuck them who needs them
I moved on with ma life and plus ma boyfriend’s seed was within me
Sixteen and two months pregnant
We has happy until I had a miscarriage
I cried and cried cuz ma child died and so did ma hope
By the age of seventeen I was back wit ma mama
I hated the world and I was always in drama
I started to get better I had prayer
I finally realized that people cared
I finally ended wit the boy I thought was the love of ma life
He loved but yall know he wasn’t treating me right
I had to let him but it hurt me so…
Much I just cried cuz I missed his touch
Until I met ma love damn yall we was meant to be
I love him and he loves me…we are so in touch…we are so in tune
I feel what he feels and he does the same
Just sayin his name….Damn… yall kno what I’m sayin
By the age of eighteen I got ma life back
I’m writing always and workin too
I still smoke weed but only on an occasion
I got a new man that means the world to me
I’m going to college and I’m movin up in the world
Graduating with a 3.6 I’m pretty good
I have no kids and I’m pretty much a genius
God blessed me to live this long
Without death
Rip ma niggas that didn’t get to live this life
Don’t worry Darryel baby imma live this life for you and I
Baby boy we gonna fly
To Kevonna I’m sorry mama dat you had to die but we know you were an angel
God needed you by his side
Freshie I’m sorry you gone ma nigga
I’m sorry the streets took you, you was real ma nigga
Weezy you ma hubby cuzo and I luv you
The good die young and I’m but we luv you
Well this is ma life…Black Thought all the way through
And for the people who said I wouldn’t make it
Thank you
Cuz ya hate made me stronger and it made me work harder
What can I say?
Imma
Genius
Please tell me what you think
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cool combo indeed
great rhythm
and clear narrative
blessings!
and remember love will make more strength
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thanx check my other poems
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oh that was cold. I liked this yo'. and girl u r pretty I saw your comment next to one of my friends poems. And you're good with poetry I see. usually I don't read long poetry right off the back but I decided to check this out anyway. I'm glad I did
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thanx for da comment about my poem and me i try to do wat i do thanx for the luv babyboy check some more wheneva u plz
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Oh shit. Twin life patterns....
Crying my eyes out over these lines...
Just a bastard child and I wouldn’t amount nothing
they beat me down
And just left me there
Rip ma niggas that didn’t get to live this life
I’m sorry the streets took you, you was real ma nigga
Real talk, why we gotta live like this? WHy are we forced to grow up in times and situations like this?
Why I gotta receive hate and give it out? Why can't we make this a better world? Is life for those who grow up like we do pointless? Is there no reason to live but TO live? Is the meaning of life so pointless that we can sum it up within a couple of well written lines that then are commented upon others who feel the same? Can smiley faces really express how we feel about what someone has written?
....I apologize for my outburst.
Sorry about your lost loved ones.
Click the link, and remember them.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=l4nBLTSVwzQ
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i luved it thanx
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Long Time Coming
Damn sis...i've been waiting for you to come back with some fire and to express your life in this piece was some fire yo..i've been missin ya...good job sis
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thanx Poetic...its been a long tyme and i shouldnt have left u without a dope beat to step to...lol
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Damn!!
These were some powerful verses!! You got a nice flow going here, an excellent flow to be truthful. I truly enjoyed this poem and it message!!! Well Done!!
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wow painful and strong
This is really powerful and emotional. I can really get into your head and really see what your life is about. I also like that the poem flows and ryhmes plus you made it your own , but of course IT is your story. Im glad you've changed your life and Im I hope you live a long happy life!
Great Write
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Overall: emotional and strong
Wow...You've got quite a lot of food for thought here. While it meadered a bit, it all felt genuine; that is, I belive you've lived this life. This is like both a long ass poem and a brief autobiography. There are few things I would suggest working on (spelling drives me crazy) but I get the sense that you needed to write all this down quickly just to get it out of your head and onto the page, so now that you've done that you can always go back and tighten it up. One of my favorite lines is: "And for the people who said I wouldn’t make it ...Thank you" That just says a lot in and of itself.
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wow these lyrical poems on this website are alwayz more then 16 bars but NEwayz this was very well thought out and wrote nice and you used good ryhmes so i give it a thumb up just try for better
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