b r e a k

here i am
once again, crying, screaming out
all my frustration
you never let me get a word in
how can i explain my actions
when every time you explode
jump to conclusions
now the door's closed
you won't let me back in
and that's fine
because I am

leaving you behind
finally
need to let go
and set myself free
tired of hurting over you
your just a person
i can find some one new
who i trust
with all of my heart
someone to be here
no matter how hard
life may be
someone to say
i am sorry it had to end this way

thinking back
when we first met
you impressed me
mesmerized me
made me feel like
there was no one else
that could see me the way you did
and never judge
were all those things
you said lies too?
you never loved me
why did you play me?

i'm not a toy
don't fuck with my heart
sure i may not show it
but i'm fragile like glass
and i break easily
this game you accused me of playing
was your own guilt choking you
reminding you of your own sins
be honest for once and just admit
that the real bitch is you
and it's nobody's fault that your life
is shit

and i'm sorry
if it seemed like i was trying to
make you feel guilty
i just worried because you meant the world to me
i would fight till the end just to be assured
that you would be all right
you were my friend
always
no matter what
you were always...


leaving you behind
finally
need to let go
and set myself free
tired of hurting over you
your just a person
i can find some one new
who i trust
with all of my heart
someone to be here
no matter how hard
life may be
someone to stay...
i am sorry it had to end this way

i have every reason to hate you
to curse you
but
i wish you the best and hope you
find whatever it is you're looking for
don't take this as some sappy, apology
but trust me when i say it...

i truly hope that someday you will be happy.