For my regret

I got stoned again today
and when the lighter sparked
I thought of you
and cried
It's so hard to believe
your hate could last this long
how much more do you expect me to take?
I've cried so many tears my eyes are about to bleed
underneath the nightmare screams
I can still hear you breathe
I stare as you walk past
my eyes take in everything
but your eyes slide right through
I wait
I breathe
for you
I bleed
Never to be in your heart again
so many mistakes
we could have been the best of friends
There's nothing I wouldn't give to have you by my side again
but without the kisses and hugs
just liquor and drugs
looking up at the stars your wish is mine too
let the pain stop and the memories fade
Alone in my room I sit
Casting black spells on you
to make you pay for the pain
wounds we have still our blood flows freely
dip the candles in so the spell will stick
So much shame
so much pain
passion burned to ash
and regret
we let
it all slip away
Lying cold on the earth
I know you're looking at the moon because I'm looking too
I feel your heart beating in my chest
and my soul begins to crack
from the weight of so much regret.