Through this treacherous battle
I find myself wondering...
"Is it really worth fighting for?"
To live in pain each day
both physical and emotional
To have your dreams die
more and more each passing month
To have your heart break
each and every time you hear the words
"It may not happen for you"
To live around others
whose lives have brought them
something that (to them) is unwanted...
but to you,
it is your only wish,
the dream that keeps you alive
(but only dying on the inside)
Yet again,
I ask..."Is it really worth fighting for?"
Author notes
Contest Option 3
For those curious as to what the meaning of this poem is...
It is about my fight for my own child. A battle that is becoming to overwhelming and too painful (both physically and emotionally)...I suffer from endometriosis and polycystic ovarian syndrome, and i've had the surgery and hormones and still no luck! I have realize that some don't see the depression this causes. A lot don't understand somethings I feel and go through...its one of those things that you can't fully understand unless you have been there, are there, or know someone really close to you who has or is dealing with it.
A contest entry
- My First Contest by fallenangel671.
800 points, ended May 6, 2007, 94 entries
Honorable mention
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I know how you feel.. i've had a few miscarriages because of Endo.. I'm not trying for a child, but been told my womb isn't safe for a baby, which is why they die on me
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What a sad write..speaks in volumes in just one line...is it worth fighting for..? Everything in life is worth fighting for! I am sad for you and I pray u deal with it well! I am here if u ever need to talk to someone!! LOvely write by a lovely lady !!
hugs n kisses
preets
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I love the poem, and what it says. Anyone human can understand what you're saying. but very few can understand what you've been through. Don't give up; happiness is always worth fighting for. Things will get better as long as you keep your head high; after all, if you always live in rain, you never see the sun. Dont ask me what that mean lol! It ust popped in my head and I'm tired. So yeah. ... hopefully that made sense!!!!
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How right you are - that you can't understand unless you walk in their shoes fits here. I am sure that continual struggle takes its toll, both physically and mentally, and there comes the time when you as is it all worth it? Whwn you get pregnant and your child is born you will forget all about these doubts, but for now this is probably foreefront on your mind. Sentiments well expressed, easy to read and understand.
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I'm sorry for you struggles and pain, and I wish so very deeply that I could say something like 'I know how you feel' or 'Don't worry, it all works out', but I can't. I have not been there, I am not there, and I know no one who is. I can only imagine and hope that that is worth enough. This piece is heart wrenching and painfully inspiring, it really has something to say.
~FoDF
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I knew from near the beginning just exactly what this was referring to, simply expounded upon in your notes, for which i thank you. I do feel for you although I am one that has been fortunate enough to have actually had children to raise, I also had several miscarriages and one child born prematurely that lasted only 2 weeks, so I can relate to the pain and the battle, at least a little. Best of luck in this and all of your endeavors.
Hetohke'e * 
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Very fascinating title and a beautiful poem at that.The answer is straight taht it is not really worth fighting for.Do you know the struggle that is going on. We endanger everything, economical, emotional and other.We put underprivileged to great distress. When ever I have to take a decision I stood for conservation for which I have to cross swords with somebody big.Ultimately no one is going to benefit from destruction, except for time being..Who ever reads your poem, they must be opening their eyes to reality. Thank you..Namaste
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Wow, I really liked this poem. Its sad, but not dark - more of a helpless, what am I gonna do? type thing that I think almost everyone has been through and can relate to. You did a great job, the flow is wonderful - not choppy or whatever at all. I have a close friend that has polycystic, and I've seen the pain that she's gone through - its a terrible thing, and I congratulate you for getting through it and continuing on. Awesomeness chica!
P.S. Thanks so much for the comment on my poem - I greatly appreciate it!
Nikki
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This is very beautiful. I have had a stillborn child, and when things like this happen it is so hard to grasp the reasoning behind what has happened. You have excellent questions and this is truly beautiful whisper
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Very good. Deep, sad and emotional. Love it. And yeah, sometimes I ask myself this question. I hope in the end all will be worth it!
Keep writing and God Bless
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a good emotion filled write penned in beautiful sadness...I wish you luck and commend you for the love you seem to poscess in a world where parents run for cover or abort...thank you for sharing this great piece and all the best to you
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excellent poem darling dont let people tell you that you may not have a baby due to endometriosis because after all my mom had endometriosis and still had me, there was a very little chance that she was actually pregnant and wouldn't have to abort the baby due to complications from the meds, i am happy to say that i was only born with right microtia which is a very easily coped with. but to your poem darling
my favorite part would have to be
To have your dreams die
more and more each passing month
To have your heart break
each and every time you hear the words
"It may not happen for you"
To live around others
whose lives have brought them
something that (to them) is unwanted...
but to you,
it is your only wish,
the dream that keeps you alive
(but only dying on the inside)
i loved this and i just felt your pain in it, i thought it was very sad, i thought that this part expressed your pain the strongest and it hit me the hardest in this part of the poem. but hun i loved this poem and i was glad that you entered it
good luck in having a baby
good luck in the contest
keep writing
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I get from this that you are either trying to get a child through adoption or through artificial insemination. I have two teen boys and I lost a child to SIDS when he was 3 months old. All I can say is keep fighting and I hope that you are fighting with a loving partner.
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I say fight until the bitter end, then fight some more. You gave birth to this child, and even if she's adopted and did not enter the world through your womb, even if you're a man that has been the greatest father. FIGHT! I can understand how hard the battle must be and certainly the child is the one who is really torn (if old enough to understand what's taking place). I have four children and would pull the teeth of a saber-tooth tiger with my bear hands to keep them. I despise custody battle and courts that remove children from loving parents. Oh my! I am flustered. Excellent work. I could feel the passion and emotions. Well written but sad.
Much Love ♥
Renee
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I hope you don't give up hope-- because usually that is all a person can do when under so much stress. Thought provoking write you have penned. Keep your spirits high and your ink flowing.
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Deep. Inspirational. Keep Fighting
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this was full of pain. Your heartbreak is obvious in each line. I wish you well as you go forward in this battle. keep writing and keep sharing. Peace and light be with you, Kendal
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Fighting for something that you want and desire is long, tiring and often discouraging. Often life seems unfair and you feel like you can barely pull through the thickness of the struggles. But as I read your poem, a thought came to my mind, and you phrased it later, fighting lets you know you are alive, that you are still trying to dominate instead of being dominated. That you won't let yourself get trampled but the overwhelming power of defeat. I really liked this poem, because I think at least once in our lives we all go through something like that, "Is it worth it?"
Sometimes struggles we go through are so hard to understand, and we wonder... Why? Why me? Why this?
You were very honest in this poem, sincere and your laying out your struggles touched me. I hope you find peace. I've found peace with God in the midst of all this struggling in the world. Keep on holding on! Hard times don't last forever.
"A time to cry and a time to laugh. A time to cry and a time to dance."
(Ecclesiastes 3:4)
I hope you don't think I am preaching at you:.)
I just hope that you are encouraged!
All this to say, I reallly liked your poem!
Keep fighting!
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I'd guessed it was about your want of children when I read it. I cannot begin to imagine your pain and frustation, but yes, it is always worth it. It is better to regret things you have done, than things you have not done. I really hope you find happiness with this one day, and that all your efforts are not in vain. All the best,
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Your poem has depth of emotion,the fact that it does not reveal the cause of the fight until the author notes has a duality about it,on the plus side each reader will have their own personal fight and will relate to this according to their fight and upon reading your author notes be able to empathize with your own fight.The title,though ambiguous,lures the reader and answers it's own question,what we each truly,truly need we have no option but to fight for,the fire is like an eternal flame,burning within us.Many blessings to you
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wow. that is good and deep.
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Don't give up Kiddo!
Life is struggle... success comes by keeping your eyes focused upon the crests of each coming hill... many times the damn hills are way too high and way too long. We each have our hills; hopefully one day soon we can see one another from our conquered hilltops. I know it's a tough thing you're working against; I've been there in my own way. It drains you. One day you'll look back and cherish these times as you smile to yourself with that little hand squeezing yours. With great pain and sacrifice can come amazing rewards.
Thinking of you and yours,
Kj
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Good
Your heart was speaking, and somehow I knew what it was about - having your own child? I understand the pain, as it took seven years and heartbreak and loss, before we were granted our heart's wish. Don't give up. You have communicated well in few words, and yes - it IS worth fighting for! Thanks for sharing your soul. You did a good job!
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I find the ending wanes though the message was sad and strong. L-12 hae=have? I wish this had been more precise in its content.
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this leaves the impression of pregnancy to me. yes, children are worth fighting for. rather it be a natural child, adoption or however one comes to be a parent. one suggestion on the write is:
To live around others
whose lives hae brought them
hae should be have
something that (to them) is unwanted...
thank you for sharing this with me. viyanna rosemarie
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oh gosh- this is so incredibly sad.. this made tears well up. A real heart breaker. Good work here to evoke such deep emotion. Blessings. Debby
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Maybe.
A strong first 4 stanzas, to my mind, let down, to my mind by it not happening for me, viz: knowing at all what "lives hae brought" others but left them unappreciative, whereas, were I in their place ... oh, the poignancy is dying inside me. I can feel it now. But is it really worth my while to fight for emotional connection to this piece? Or must I forever dream on (all the while dying inside)?
I applaud the strength of the opening.
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