Paranoia

Passing though the hallways
My hands tight around myself
Holding back a lump in my throat
Forcing a smile or a word from my mouth

There’s an empty world around me
Things I can’t get passed
I’m barely getting by at times
Everything is just moving too fast

I keep to myself too often
I’m afraid to speak my mind
Too scared to upset someone
So I hold out my mask and hide behind

Too paranoid to be left alone
Afraid of what will happen if I get too close
I stand by and just let it play out
Just to see how everything goes

I fear I’m living it all over again
What if this suffering isn’t meant to end?
I need some major reassurance
I’m in deeper than even I can comprehend