Thinking of you

Walking into the store you once worked at
Thinking of you and how much you loved work
You had som amny freinds and you were happy
There you werent lonely
There you could be somebody
Where no one called you names




I sit on the toilet crying out my eyes
Trying to forget all the promises and lies

We walked into the store to pick out my birtday cake
But now those memories swim in my head like a bad snake

I cry so hard I am about to throw up
I sit there wishing I was in a private hut

I tryed to cry quietly so no one could hear
I was hoping that no one wsa near

I sat there wiping away my tears
But the more I thought of you I cried
Mommy I really tried

I wanted to be strong for you
I didnt no if you could handle the truth

I remember the last time you hugged me
As I sat by your side knowing this could be the last
Of our sweet past

I sat there wondering if i'd ever see you again
I sat there wondering if your life would begin

I watched you try to hold back your tears too
I wanted to sit and comfort you

I didnt know if you still loved me
Or if all what you saw was lies

I remember the time you said I love you
I want you to say it again

I want you to smile and show me your happy
Cuz if you dont I will cry thinking about you

I want to wash away my sorrow
And maybe even borrow

someone elses life
just to see there strife

Do i have the worst?
I feel like I am about to burst

Plant a brand new seed
That is really what I need