lifted and sunken

Can anyone help, I’ve lost a love and my heart is falling apart.
Can anyone wrap their arms around me and silence the pain      in this Crumbling heart.
Once again I need a friend to keep me safe,       
the insecurities are here once more,
knocking
Banging
Kicking at my back door
and apprehensive has a hold on me
forever more.

Please tell me where that entity resides,     
who stole pieces of my heart in their biblical disguise,
who won’t give it back no matter how loud I shout.
I need it to know that I miss her so much,
and that sometimes the memories are the things I mistrust.

A rarity in life that can’t be replaced,
a beautiful soul forever lost never again to be embraced.
Memories so abrupt,
continuously  disrupt
My currupted null that rest below.

When the menories come my heart is lifted and sunken, lifted and sunken to a place I don’t know.
Now she is gone, my family is lifted and sunken, lifted and sunken to eternal pain and sorrow.
And when she left my Hy was lifted and sunken, lifted and sunken below.