Shaking head to toe
frightened by a single blow
Time and time again
shudder at his touch
so scared
so terrified
NO TRUST
Fighting fighting fighting
IT HAS TO STOP
Not right
I don't deserve this
Nobody deserves this
Get out
Get out
Run
Rushing Rushing
Heart beating so fast
wake up in sweats
So scared so frightened
No Trust
Start over
So hard
I can't
I see it again and again
Him standing over me
Hitting so scared
Start over start again
New life
Name
Job
house
All new
to get way
but still scared
so scared
terrified
approached by
anyone
so hard
can't help
but shudder
refuse help
need time
can't breathe
NO TRUST
panic attacks
cold night sweat
insomnia
So scared
Gotta stop
Gotta stop
Gotta stop
NOW
I need help
I need help
Help me please
I wanna trust
I wanna trust again
How
it's slow
so slow
talking about it
visiting therapists
Time
all so important
must trust
I want to be able to trust
again
time time time
It will be OK
I keep saying this
over and over again
It will be OK
Never again
but I'm OK
I can trust again
frightened by a single blow
Time and time again
shudder at his touch
so scared
so terrified
NO TRUST
Fighting fighting fighting
IT HAS TO STOP
Not right
I don't deserve this
Nobody deserves this
Get out
Get out
Run
Rushing Rushing
Heart beating so fast
wake up in sweats
So scared so frightened
No Trust
Start over
So hard
I can't
I see it again and again
Him standing over me
Hitting so scared
Start over start again
New life
Name
Job
house
All new
to get way
but still scared
so scared
terrified
approached by
anyone
so hard
can't help
but shudder
refuse help
need time
can't breathe
NO TRUST
panic attacks
cold night sweat
insomnia
So scared
Gotta stop
Gotta stop
Gotta stop
NOW
I need help
I need help
Help me please
I wanna trust
I wanna trust again
How
it's slow
so slow
talking about it
visiting therapists
Time
all so important
must trust
I want to be able to trust
again
time time time
It will be OK
I keep saying this
over and over again
It will be OK
Never again
but I'm OK
I can trust again
Author notes
It's a story in a free verse first person view about a woman in an abusive parternship she finally has the nerve to get out but doesn't get help so her fear gets worse until she is forced to realize she needs help to get through it and be able to trust again
I'm not sure if it's any good but I worked hard on it Although I have never been in this situation I just fhinshed watching the novie "Enough" so I tried to imagne being her
A contest entry
- How Do I Learn To Trust Again? {contest} by Viyanna Rosemarie.
650 points, ended May 2, 2007, 17 entries
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Please tell me what you think
Comments
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Abusive relationship and trust has to be harder then someone that decieves...I think...but I do think the scares show in the same way within ones heart..except with abusive, it leaves scares on the outside...with cheating its left on the inside...nice write..good luck in with the contest
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i can tell you worked hard on this. however, it focuses much on the abuse. if you can incorporate a bit more on HOW to trust i would appreciate it. i thank you for your entry. i can't imagine not being in this situation so i want to tell you how blessed you are that you don't know. good luck in this contest. viyanna rosemarie
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thanks
I also wanted to let you know that I edited it upon your suggestion. Wonderful contest idea and I wish you the very best.
~Hope~
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A lot of emotion.
I think you did it very well from the POV of the woman. Yes it has a lot of emotion and that is displayed throughout the poem.



