My first act, my first attempt
at trying life for the first time
Breathing in the essence
of my first love
Now with a broken heart
I must continue on,
taking with me
the pain and shame
as I pull away from the fear of being alone...
Butterflies wrapped in barbwire
clashing wits and doubts
My soul juxtaposed with a few sprinkled ashes
tearing myself apart
from the inside out
Clawing my way out from insanity
justifying and searching for what I actually believe in
Through tarnishing thoughts throughout my head
My undecided requisition for the woman that lays in my bed
Lucious lips of lust pull me in closer..
So hard to turn away
Far too deep to climb back out
She's the soverign addiction,
my one, my only,
in which I cannot escape
Her voice spreads like fire
rummaging through my ear
She's the one I cant contain
but so contagious that I must set her free
Just understand that I'm unaware
of my drastic thinking,
my ramblings of nothingness
I'll shall speak in riddles
for you to decipher.
Dancing shadows
haunting within my last nights dream
Drawing deeper with lead and ink
Pushing so hard that they begin to break
like me under pressure...
I'm floating on clouds of white,
soft and transparent.
My mind is taking me elsewhere.
Truth and lies
I cannot tell which is which
it all sounds the same.
Intervals of twisted thoughts
mashed together,
reaching out
Pulling closer,
Screaming voices uttering words of
hatred and damned redemption.
So tight, so close
I cant seem to breathe in this enclosed space
Pieces of the puzzle
separate
and rearrange themselves
Now impossible to solve
So I cannot finish what I've started.......
(N O T F I N I S H E D Y E T)
Author notes
This is so far unfinished as I reach into more of my deep headed thoughts which maybe this will never end?? I dont know but I'll find something to end it with a bang....or a just a flag that says bang! i dont know and again um this is really weird and so.... out there I kinda just did this randomly and I really dont think it has a rhythm or anything if you want an idea I guess maybe it could be a 'Tool' song. I dont know I'll finish it later tho.
Chris
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This is truly beautiful and dark like much of your work, I'm usually a dark poet myself. You're amazing as I've said most of the times before. Never stop writing so greatly!! You're wonderful!!=]
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"Now with a broken heart
I must continue on,
taking with me
the pain and shame" is my favorite part great write and i when you finish me let me know so i can see how it ends
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this is amazing.. so deep ... and i love at the end how it kind of drifts, the words.. it adds to the thought of it.. it is a wonderful write... however you decide to end it it is going to be beautiful
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zomg... bro this is awesome. you have such a way with words.. && big ones too.. "juxtaposed" *grabs dictionary* ahh.. i see.. =]
well done! again this is awesome, it has an air about it that just pulls you in and your trapped. not wanting to get out, but then you get to the big " not finished yet" and figure out you have to dig your way out with a spork.
but um. er. away from the sporks.... that could get quiet nasty..*curses sporks but holds them close*
cant wait to read more!!!
much love bro!
xoxox
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Deeply thoughtfull.
I can't wait to read the finish of it.
-Kaitlyn-
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