Seventeen years
Taught me not to cry.
(You can't see my tears)
Now I feel that guilt
That fat-girl-guilt
I plug myself in-
With a tide of music
Try to ignore that
Hunger-induced
Headache.
(I froze them inside me
When you called me [[FATSO]]).
I panic
When I eat now-
Cold dread in me-
So I try not to,
Simple.
(They're ripping my heart
Apart
Since you called me [[FATSO]]).
I just think-
In future, I'll watch
My words.
Knowing how a nickname
Hurts.
(And no-one will ever love me
-I'm shredded-
You called me [[FATSO]]).
A contest entry
- First Contest by joleahe.
300 points, ended April 13, 2007, 25 entries
Silver trophy winner
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600 points, ended April 26, 2007, 11 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Battle of the Honorable Mentions by th3sl4y3r.
380 points, ended May 16, 2007, 74 entries
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Please tell me what you think
Comments
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It is never easy to dig deep like this and put your heart and honest emotions for everyone to see, you have done this wonderfully... It is sad that people run others down, because most of the time it is them selves that they are not happy with, it is their own insecurities that make them lash out at others... and honestly, it is those people who we should feel sorry for, for they are the ones with small minds and true problems, real pshychological problems.. They think by calling others names and making others feel bad them selves makes them feel better, but you know, we can get away from those types of people, where they can never escape from them selves...
Your poem is very true, not just from being called fat but all name calling will make you feel alone and bring down your self esteem, I know..
thank you so much for your entry in my contest..
peace and light always
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Your right, what people say to eachother without thinking can be devestating. I have a poem that talks about this same thing called "How did it feel". I like this style, the way you use parenthesis in your writing, its one of my favorite forms, and yet one I never think to use!
Thank you for sharing this, hopefully it will stir people to think before they say cruel things.
I hope that you arent truly starving yourself. I know from experience that it'll screw up your metabolism and you'll have even worse weight problems later. Wouldnt it be great if eating was like smoking a ciggerette? Then you could enjoy it without the calories, or quit it all together!
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whoa.. deep.. i hate the way that people judge by looks.. i was told i was fat by an obese girl while i wheighed 32 kg (not alot at all) and it got to me.. i became the wheight of a small todler because of that..
good luck hon -
Well done....sometimes people have no idea the impact of the words they say....my dad told me once I was starting to look like the good year blimp starting me on a path of anorexia. Wishing you the best of luck in the contest.
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