Restraining myself

In my eyes you’re so gentle, as fragile as can be,
Compared to that queen who prized pieces from me,

In the centre of my heart, that lays lifelessly,
Is you, a constant desire to be closer in fantasy,

But as I approach, my finger tips turn to claws,
A fear builds of myself, to ever leave you torn,

To spoil that nearness to simple perfection,
Would be a cruel mistake never to be forgiven,

How can I be confident in this intimacy?
When i do not trust myself when feelings are set free,

You speak of the past, the painful heartache,
Lies by the name of love, I don't want to also break,

You seemed so out of reach, just a star you'd dream upon,
And yet that kiss runs through my mind  from not long,

How could I make that kitten smile remain?
With roses? With my touch? or should i refrain?

The easy option, to protect you from that fiend,
Who hides inside, but breaks hearts once intervened,

I feel like I don't deserve you, you seem high in the sky,
So in this icy corner I remain, until I can believe you are mine.