[.x.b.l.e.h.x.]

first of all i fell in love with your eyes
crystal clear purity with the darkest edge
which made me blind to all of your lies

the weeks, days, hours that we had spent
talking mindlessly on the telephone
are something i have come to resent

i remember when i used to fall into the abyss way deep
but youd bring me back to selflessness
when i could hear you softly, sadly, sincerely weep

i was never aware of the poison that runs through your veins
could it just be for me, the pain and hate my sacred endowment
or perhaps it is that im the only one that actually complains

you pulled me out but you leave me hanging helplessly paralyzed
over the steep cliffs edge like a defective, unwanted, garbage puppet
my demented soul, endlessly cursed, why havent i conciously realized

im constantly reminded in those horribly sweet dreams
of those little things that drew me so much closer to you
burning into the back of my mind, blissful as it seems

frantically searching for the scattered shards of what was us
pathetically scrambling to put never existing pieces together
then i wonder why i am slowly becoming seriously delirious

and if to add the other chain links to my electrical fence
the prose would become a stunningly profound tragedy
and none of it makes any non contradicting logical sense