Rocks fall & all my characters DIE,
Now my mascara running into my eyes,
And now I'm giving up on writing,
Which means I'm giving up on life,
I'm gonna b.u.r.n. all my journals,
I'm gonna b.u.r.n. all my books,
I'm gonna walk a..w..a..y,
Without another look,
Nothing §anyone§ says will make me change my mind,
When they said this rp was dead,
The deal was SiGnEd,
I love writing more than §anyone§ thinks,
{more than §anyone§ knows}
This can not be what I chose,
I dreamed of being a poet,
Of traveling the ¤world¤,
Writing a novel,
But now it's all gone d.o.w.n. in a «whirl»,
So I will never become a famous poet,
I will never finish that novel,
I wont go d.o.w.n. in history as a famous author,
This is much to my horror,
Much to my demise,
I despise how this mascara wont stop burning in my eyes,
This screen has become a BlUr,
From the +tears+I'm {crying}
It's hard to think how /life\,
Can ChAnGe in the (blink)of an eye,
But it seems it CAN,
It seems it HAS,
My story is written,
My story is done,
And now the victor ship,
Has ^left^with object **won**,
My dream has slipped away,
There's nothing more to say,
But I guess dreams are just dreams,
And that's all they're meant to be,
Never to become [reality],
Never to truly be yours,
Only in {fairytales}does that ever happen,
I'm giving up on my dreams,
I'm giving up on me.
goodbye
Author notes
i had a total mental break down. I'm better though.
Please tell me what you think
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please don't stop writing. you're a great writer, and the world doesn't have many teens that are enthusiastic about writing. Don't give up. It will get better. Life is just one big roller coaster that goes up, down, and sometimes loops, but there will always be another up hill venture to look forward to.
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emo, but breakdowns are a spiral that shows that you slowly come back up. this was a pretty cool poem though. this was crazy, and i know the feeling. i hate when people have better friends and they say they are better writers and things change and yeah. when my writing sucks, i feel like i have failed myself, so i know the feeling. a very powerful write. great work.
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Gah I sound emo! Mental breakdown much!
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Please don't give up on yourself. I know and understand every word in this poem and I loved it. I feel like that a lot and I think that you are just going through a hard time, but remember that no matter what you always have people to talk to. If you ever need someone to just chat with you can talk to me, my myspace is www.myspace.com/xxxgothicxxxchickxxx and my yahoo screenname is emo_girl2008. I'm almost always on so you can just im me and we can chat or whatever. I think that you are a wonderful writer and I can see why you love writing, you are very good at it.
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I thank you so much for the comment, & I really appreciat the thought. I just don't think I could ever go back to writing. I love it. It was my life, but I've had major change & I've lost sometihng that to others it would probrably seem silly to cry over but to me it was something that I'd never thought I'd have to give up & I allways thought it be there. I don't know if I could ever write again.
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