If I could write this scream
if I could palpitate this hole,
if I could wash away these memories
that ache this tortured soul.
If I could only find the words
or let the sounds erupt
held in, tortured, childhood screams
witheld amongst your touch.
If I could come back to my body
if I could reconnect
and live through all those moments that
I wish I could forget.
i am scared of all the feelings
that I have pushed away inside,
facing truths is painful when,
you have filled your life with lies..
there must have been something wrong with me
that made my mother walk away, (not true)
my father was just sick of me and my brother was my mate!
and I am writing cheesy poetry,
to free the archaic screams inside
but there is a snynapse not quite firing
and the lies are kept alive.
A contest entry
- Anything you desire (1050 points in total) by Blood-Wolf.
1050 points, ended April 19, 2007, 32 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Please tell me what you think
Comments
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interesting poem , a bit confusing in places but i still enjoyed it i beleive it has a hidden meaning tucked away inside of it that subconsiously makes you think well don
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let the screams go hun
they are archaic and holding you back, but what i see here is an acknowledgement, and an honest and clear appraisal of a journey, a road travelled a longway. You know your own truth.
elaine
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i am stunned into a small quiet space as i read this, i am small again and hiding under a table, just out of reach - what hit me, with the greatest impact - yes the poem is forceful, yes it has great, searing pain and revelation - what forceful words found (parenthetically) the words “not true” – if i had guessed anything about this, those words would not have shown themselves, but remained hidden in a shadowy memory – i knew those words, even then, even now. Blessings and best wishes, ~richard
and i am off to have a good cry.
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