Some Friend You Are

Every writhing star-streaked night,
Now lost to me, now far from sight,
Every azure sky that we once shared
Has been torn up and cannot be repaired.

This is the effect that you once had:
You elevated happy, banished sad
To the far corners: the shade where I now dwell.
I still hear the small secrets that you will never tell
Me again and now I’ll never face
You because I have just been replaced.

I hate you and your precious smile,
You will make new friends. Meanwhile,
I’m still here, although you cannot see
Me. I am forgotten and tiny.

I wish I’d never introduced you to my favourite singer.
Her music will last forever, but you did not linger
When you spotted someone else to show your sharp teeth to.
I was in the background, praying that they would see through
Your outward actions to the callous beast within,
You can keep your gossip and your imbecilic “twin”.

I don’t need you, I’m fine alone, but the sad truth is this:
Soon I will crawl back through a gap in your fist,
And curl back up inside your spell and I’ll apologise,
But this is how I really feel, I swear the rest is lies,
Each simpering smile, each sniggered-at insult
Is simply caused by your enchantment, none of it’s my fault.