Trapped for what seems like forever,
My own little eternity, hidden away.
Attacking my body, pulling me down.
My suicide map is in the words I don't say.
My death won't come from an overdose,
For drugs are how I keep myself alive.
This belt looped around my waist
Will not be used for my final dive.
The dreams from my childhood still persist,
I sleep to dream about my very final breath.
To imagine myself jumping, falling, landing,
I want to fly until it brings along my death.
This train ticket will take me all the way,
I don't mind the fee to climb this tower,
Sitting on the observation deck, so high up,
I know that finally I own all of the power.
Waiting, forever waiting to be alone again,
Peering over the edge of my life, my world,
The finality makes me wild with adreniline.
Over the edge, my body is finally hurled.
Author notes
This is my real suicide plan. I dream of it so much that I wake up on a high.
A contest entry
- deppressed/suicide/hurt/lost love/cutting(SA, SI) by Felix BlackHeart.
375 points, ended May 13, 2007, 30 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Please tell me what you think
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Wow
well you certainly have an interesting plan for suicide but then again if ya gotta go out of this world its a good way of planning your death but hopefully you will never ever have to do that and you just die naturally
any ways very interesting poem and I see my friend tasha commented not suprised she did she knows about this. any ways good work and kepe it up 
Signed, Paul
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this is really good. your choice of words are very good as well. I like the topic this one is of and the title. thanx for entering ym contest!
Felix BlackHeart
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Beautiful, but I hope you don't do it. Though I'm being a hyprocrite in saying so.
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dude do u take anti depressants with a black box warning?
ddt thing or w.e? -
great poem
really excpressive
damn
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wow.....I want to say thank you for your amazing critiques on my poetry (glad you like it).....and I decided to return the favor.
I can relate to this is every way...I have a plan too...though I'm sure many do. I can relate to this line so much....
My death won't come from an overdose,
For drugs are how I keep myself alive.
I was an addict so yeah,....when you said you were just happy others saw things the way you did....I understand that so much...you feel crazy and are to afraid to ask if it's normal.......and that's why I love poetry so much......well anywho...your amazing and I loved this write....such wonderful words and flow......keep writting you have a burning talent..
XTashaX
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Wow, please restrain yourself from doing that. I would miss you a ton. And I would cry lots. Cause I love you so much. I'm here if you ever need to talk.
Great poem, good luck!
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I agree!
...........WOW!...........
Beautifully written, in a heartbreaking sort of way.
Keep writing, you're good at it!
<3BeautifulDisaster9
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Cmpltlncompletion has pretty much summed it up.
wow
love you huns.
Claire
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Chankels hunny bunny.
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Thanks Cmplt. You say it so well
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