Oh God this feels like heaven,
this feeling swimming through my veins,
this bliss which moves and stirs me,
crackling in my brain.
And this bliss has brought me
a nice, sweet bit of time-
a brief departure from the constancy
of the torment in my mind.
Not quite freedom this,
but a vacation from my hell;
a respite from the chaos
where all my demons dwell.
No, I can't hear their chatter now,
those harbingers of doubt,
I'm hearing only what I permit,
casting those bitter demons out.
Two years now I've given to neglect
my body, heart, and mind-
so the peace I'm now indulging in,
I've bought the rights with time.
And I'm not thinking of tomorrow,
I've banished all thoughts of regret-
there will be plenty more of sorrow,
but tonight my needs are met.
Author notes
As a result of a serious car accident and surgery, I was put on a regimine of painkillers. Quite simply, this poem is my story of how someone "normal" can become addicted to something almost accidentally. I didn't go looking for it, "wise" doctors gave it to me. Pain is the quickest way to alter your life completely and painkillers are the quickest way to buy yourself a little bit of peace from all the chaos that comes with it. Rest assured, this is a problem my friends here at AP know I'm devoting all my energy to solving.
Please tell me what you think
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This is darn near perfect to me. The whole thing flows so well as a poem but is so wonderfully honest and oozes personal feelings. No writers imagination here, just real emotion. I found your work by chance and have enjoyed the pleasure of reading, good luck with future writes and with your health problems too.
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Good for you. A poem filled with hope & inspiration. Way to many are hooked on Drs. drugs. Good luck & now I am off to the gym to feel some good pain... lol
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I love good pain! I biked ten miles a day and went to the gym 3 times a week before my accident. What I would give . . .
Thank you,
***Rae***
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First off, this is excellent in every way!
Rhyme, rythm, flow, content....
I know exactly what you mean about pain killers, I have a degenerative bone disease and have been 'accidently addicted' for many years.
Although it is ironic that the 'wise' doctors choose call it dependence *shrugs*
Sometimes things are just what they are and we have to just deal with what we are dealt.
Seriously awesome poem from the heart.
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I am so sorry about your 'condition.' Isn't that a funny word to describe something so profound? Thankfully, most people don't have to live their lives in pain. I hope someday you won't, either. Both of us. Thank you for your amazing compliments.
Blessed Be,
***Rae***
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Very well written.
I hope you sort things out the way you want. I hope, more than that, that you already have.
The fact that you want to (as I learnt from the author notes) solve the problem is wonderful, and if it were possible, I would help you in your quest.
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Thank you. This is such a difficult subject to write and to be honest about, but it needs to be addressed. You are so kind. I am getting there, slowly. But better slowly than not at all. I just think doctors need to be aware of exploring more, even maybe less traditional, options.
Thanks again.
***Rae***
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I think you may enjoy a small piece i did called....
..Just For Now...
it touches on your very articulate piece....
this was excellent lass....
so few know how to draw from these moments....
I am sorry for your accident...
do not beat yourself up...
Mankind has always altered their state of mind...
it is natural....
to want to escape.
it is a hard life lass....
the only way out is through dreaming.....
This makes your comment on mine valued ten fold...knowing what a phenomenal writer and observer of life you are.
Great job little gypsy,
Lowell
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Thank you. You, amoung others, have always been very kind to me. It is natural to want to escape into a pleasant dreamlike state and when that state takes away pain, well, you can imagine. Your compliments to me were beautiful. I shall definately read your piece (on the 'morrow, so to speak).
Blessings,
Rae
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Excellent write
Your rhyme and rhythm flow naturally which is something that I personally find quite hard. (everyone has a different style though) I like your style though, also thankyou for your comment on The Wheel which is not one of my better pieces. But if you liked it I think you will like "The Centre Of My Journeys" by me also. I would love you to read it and give me your honest opinion. I am going to add you as a fave hope u don't mind. Jimmy B. Steed
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Oh, I never mind if someone adds me as their favorite! I find it quite hard to rhyme this way and was quite surprised it came out the way that it did. I hope that I will be able to do it again someday! I would be honoured to read your work, as always.
Rae
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poem is fantastic,,,reflects alot of your own feelings...
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Thank you very much. This wasn't quite a labour of love, but it was a labour!
Rae
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Outstanding!!!
I can relate to many of your words here...
How easily a prescribed necessity can become a life changing addiction...
Another piece that speaks from the heart & is so profound in its truth & power...
Keep up the good work...
Well done!!!
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Thanks. You are right; these things that are necessities become life altering. And the fight back is a big one. I was hopiing maybe someone would see this and think twice, you know? Thanks again,
Rach
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very real, and touching. I can imagine it - vividly in my mind. And it's all too true....
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re: "Numbing the Pain"
Please forgive me if this is my second response to your comment; I'm still in awe of how many critiques I received about this poem & I'm afraid that I've lost track of who I've responded to and who I haven't! But I just want to make sure that I thank everyone who took the time to read my poem and comment on it; I'm so absolutely touched by how many fellow poets liked this poem and how many people related to it. So, I thank you for your kind words.
Blessed Be,
***Rae***
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oh wow! just wow this is so deep and touching Fantastic! i love it and its so true this happens all the time i love your talent great work
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I'm sorry if this is a 'duplicate' response to your comment - I'm afraid that I've lost track of who I have responded to and who I haven't when it comes to this poem! I'm still in a bit of shock at the response that it has received! Your compliment touched me deeply; anytime someone refers to me as talented I blush, but secretly I get a little thrill and a huge rush! Thank you so, so much.
Blessed Be,
***Rae***
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very good
yeah, i know the story well
doctors seem to ignore the real p[roblem
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you did a good job
that moment of serenity is priceless
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You are so right . . . if they could just treat the problems, instead of masking the pain. Thanks for your kind words,
***Rae***
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just wanted to let you know you'll be in my prayers.
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Thank you! I can use all the prayers that I can get!
Blessings,
***Rae***
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VERY TRUE! doctors put you on pain killers and expect all to keep from getting addicted, knowing their risk rates. as a sufferer of endometriosis and polycystic ovarian syndrome, i have been dealing with pain for seven years, and was sent to a pain specialist. at one point i was constantly taking them! i never wanted to become addicted, but i did. now i have wisened up and only take them when REALLY needed. its something a lot of people don't realize, and half of the doctors don't realize. if you need any help i am always here. i understand the battle and what you are going through.
a great write and you have shown in poetry something that affects a lot of people, and is real. no matter what addiction you are fighting. it is hard...
~bee
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Wow, thank you for such incredibly kind words and a great compliment of my poem. I was a little astounded by the response I've gotten to this! It's sad that so many people relate, and yet, at the same time, I no longer feel so alone in this battle. Thank you for your offer of support; you might just find me taking you up on that! I am trying very hard to only take meds when needed; it's so hard, though, isn't it? I also suffer from depression (who doesn't, when they're in constant pain and their entire life has been altered) and the meds give me a false sense of happiness that anit-depressants don't even come close to. I'm so happy for you, that you were able to beat this thing. One of my dearest girlfriends has the same condition that you do, so I completely understand the pain you are in. My poor friend has some of her eggs frozen in case the endrometiosis got so bad that she couldn't have children; the scar tissue from that surgery has now wrapped around her fallopian tube and is causing her yet MORE pain. My heart breaks for her, she just the coolest, sweetest friend . . . Anyway, I'm rambling. I really just wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart. Everyone who has shared their story has been unrelentingly kin, thougoroly honest, and amazingly brave.
Lots of love & stay strong!
***Rae***
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That is extremely accurate, I think for any addiction youve perfected it. I know addiction and I must say every word is the truth. "Crackling in my brain" Ive never quite thought of it that way, but that image fits very well. The first step to recovery is assesing the problem.
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Thank you so much. I have to admit, the 'crackling in my brain' bit was probably the best way I could describe that feeling. I'm sorry that you've had experience with this, but it sounds as if you are on solid footing now. Yes, you are correct; admitting there is a problem is the first step to recovery. Isn't it funny how you can spend so much time hiding a problem, but once you admit it, everything suddenly gets a little easier? I'm working very, very hard to better myself. It's an uphill battle all the way, but I'm trying.
Thanks for taking the time to read & comment; your words are deeply appreciated.
***Rae***
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This poem means something to everyone. I don't care if your straight edge you probably chew gum like a feind or something. This poem I can relate to 100%. You put it very well, biding time is all we beg for esentially. To take away what's on our brain from day to day is sweet delight.
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Wow, I like what you said: 'to take away what's on our brain from day to day is sweet delight.' I couldn't have said it any better. Thank you for taking the time to read & comment; everyone has been just so, so kind.
Blessed Be,
***Rae***
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sober is hard
eye beat alcholic craving
cold turkey in desert
five days straight
not food no much water
just wanted my sober
got it
now eye want to keep it
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MY TWIN
I am in the exact same situation that you are. I could have written this myself. I wish you would read some of my addiction pieces. I sooooooo relate to that feeling. Comfortably numb. Great write. I soooooo enjoyed finding it, reading, and commenting on this.
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I am so, so sorry that you are in the same position I am; I wouldn't wish that on anyone. But, I guess addiction makes one more compassionate, doesn't it, and I guess that's at least something. I will definately read some of your poems. I find an amazing amount of comfort in being able to relate to other poets . . . thank you for the kudos & the kind words.
***Rae***
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hm you know this also describes people who live on their emotions. It's quite sad, actually. Great write.
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Thanks for taking the time to read & comment on my poem. A lot of people have told me that they can relate this to something in their lives, as well; not necessarily addiction. I hadn't thought of that while I was writing this, but now I see how this could describe lots of situations.
Thanks again,
***Rae***
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Wow. I love the way this flows so naturally through the different thoughts of an addict-- you clearly convey the fact that you know this blissful feeling is temporary, but you don't care because you have escaped for the time being. That's what I think addiction comes down to in a lot of cases, and that's what you've expressed here-- a need to escape. By using certain words, such as "indulging", you show that you know this is not necessarily the most healthy or realistic way to cope. And yet it still remains obvious to the reader why you have chosen to indulge in this scenario: because it is
"a brief departure from the constancy
of the torment in my mind."
Honestly, I think those two lines describe addiction to a tee. My father is an alcoholic, and I know he uses drinking as a means of escape. My mother is a recovered addict, who was once in a situation much like your own. She was prescribed painkillers for arthritis, and then this "pain management" doctor started giving her more and more for every little ache and pain she had. As someone who also suffers from depression, she found herself taking them when she was in emotional pain along with the physical. Once again, it was all about the escape.
That being said, I also felt the underlying sadness in this poem. There was almost a defeated feeling there for me, especially in the last two lines. You acknowledge that you will regret what you are doing, after the night is over and your "escape" has been shattered. Even though you've shown the feelings that make addiction seem frighteningly logical, you also show why it is not in your best interest. You acknowledge that the problems will still be there, and that you are only putting off finding a resolution by using this temporary escape.
Very honest, powerful, well-written poem. I wish you the best of luck in overcoming this, so you can really be free once and for all.
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Thank you so much for all of your comments; I can honestly say that your 'critique' touched me more than any other; perhaps because you understood all that I said and all that I left unsaid so utterly well. I'm sorry that you had to experience these issues with your family, though, in order to gain such wisdom. I've been on both sides of the coin myself; my father was also an alcoholic. 15 years ago he was diagnosed as manic-depressive; once he was started on a treatment plan for that, he never touched a drink again. So I strongly believe that most addicts & alcholics are suffering from some other undiagnosed psychosis and are simply self-medicating, as you said. I also understand your mother's problem all too well; I also was suffering from depression (on & off throughout my life) and an eating disorder when I was first prescribed painkillers. From that very first pill, I felt as if I finally understood what it felt like to be "normal." Now that I've done some research into pain killers & the way that they interact with the chemicals & transmitters in the brain, it's become very clear to me why this medications are so addictive to people with depression. I wish that drug companies would start researching the effects of pain killers on depressive subjects; I think that that line of research could help us to better understand the problem and possibly even to find an answer. Again, your comments touched me deeply. You understood my thoughts so well, I felt as if you had crawled into my brain and taken notes!
I apologize if you receive this response late; my ISP is in the middle of a take-ober and I can't seem to send messages, acces MySpace (which is killing me!) or interact via IM. Hopefully they'll straighten things out by tomorrow; I really don't want to have to drive around with my Notebook looking for a wireless signal to steal!
Thank you for your kindness & compassion,
***Rae***
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Thanks! Whenever I'm blown away by a poem, I usually can just managed a 'wow' - so I'll take that as a great compliment. I'm glad you're not addicted to anything; I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. Not even my ex husband or the fourth grade teacher who made my life hell, and those are some strong words. Everyone needs to escape from time to time . . . I'm glad that you are able to do it in a healthy way.
Lots of love,
***Rae***
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A very well worded piece on a harsh subject, though the resonance and light in your words at the start made me think it could be almost a completely lyrical poem. It does get darker towards the end and I also feel you stumble with words at the finish, as if you really didn't want to write them. IN:
And I'm not thinking of tomorrow,
I've banished all thoughts of regret
you repeat the verb think and I feel it takes away a bit of the lustre of a remarkable piece.
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Thank you for the suggestion! I hadn’t really noticed that; I will have to see if I can polish it up a bit more. Thank you for taking the time to read & comment; I always, always appreciate suggestions that might help me to better my poetry.
***Rae***
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Thank you so much for reading & commenting. I’m glad that you liked the poem & that my ‘Author’s Notes’ touched you as well. I am trying very hard to straighten things out. It’s tough, but I’m getting there (knock-on-wood!).
***Rae***
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BRILIANT!
you explained your self and your feelings very well here. i dont know much about writing poems, but this one captivated me from the very first line. it was so professional in the sense that it should be published. your poem made me think about the troubles i face and what i do to escape. i dont think about addiction as a battle or stougle. i think of it as life, just another thing we do to ourselves to keep alive and stiving to make it in this world. with no one had problems then why would we be here, there would be no point if every thing was always fine and dandy. i hate to here about people that have addiction problems because it makes me sad. i know i cant do anything to help because who wants to listen to some one that has major problems of their own. but i am rooting for you. so good luck!
~ love the rain ~
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****Rainy Kisses****
Wow, you’re comments were definitely the most original! You had quite a different take on addiction; I almost wonder if you don’t have the healthier perspective. Your comment that this was “publishable” blew me away! What a compliment! How can I say thank you for lighting up my whole day??? Thank You!! Good Luck to you, too & stay safe. I’m always around if you ever need to talk.
Blessed Be,
***Rae***
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wow, this is amazing. i normally don't really like rhyming poetry but the imagery and rhythym of this piece are awesome. i could really feel my heart speed up the way it does when you indulge in something forbidden. the last line was what really got me, though. even when we know it won't last forever, it's so hard not to give in when the temporary relief is so much easier than holding out. i absolutely loved it.
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Wow, thanks for such an amazing compliment. Yes, the last line seems to be a lot of people’s fav. I think it’s because it’s the most honest: you know this feeling won’t last forever, but you have to have it, anyway.
Thanks again for such kind words,
***Rae***
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a very tight, controlled, open and evocative write. it's ambiguous enough that people with other forms of addiction can relate, as well as those of us who love someone battling addiction. and it IS SUCH a battle. i'm so glad to hear you are, first, admitting that it's become a problem and second, that you are devoted to making change.
sometimes our pain is so great (in whatever form) that it is just as you describe: a moment of relief is so desperately needed to all our resolve washes away and we don't think about the long-term consequences.
you are brave for putting your story out there. thanks for sharing.
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Thank you for reading and commenting on my poem. You seemed to really, really understand all the motivations and pitfalls. Yes, you are also correct about loving someone with an addiction, I’ve been on that side of the coin, too. Addiction is just so all-consuming, probably because the root of the problem is so much more than the fleeting feeling of peace that one gets from a ‘high.’ Ah, if we could solve what that problem actually is, wouldn’t that be lovely?
Thank you again, your words were deeply appreciated.
***Rae***
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These things are important to write about. Even more important is having support around you when dealing with addiction. Thanks for sharing.
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Thank you for your kind words. This was my most honest effort ever, so I'm more than pleased at the response I have been getting, although I am a bit sad that there are so many people struggling with the same or similar problems. On a positive note, however, this has certainly created for me a small support network!
Thanks again,
***Rae***
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Anyone who has ever had to deal with addiction has to be quite moved by this wonderful piece. It is so easy to use opiates as a way to slip away from some of the things that life hurls at you.I remember that old commerical where the girl said she didn't plan to grow up to be a junkie. It is so easy for some to judge when somebody ends up addicted. Until one has been there there is really no way for them to understand. Your comment about your piece could have come from me. So it touched me in the ay only truth can touch a person. Good luck w/your battle you may feel alone as you fight but know there are many others that understand and wish they had a magic wand to make it all better. I fight this battle also and w/2 more surgeries ahead I can see no light at the end of the tunnel. My thoughts will be with you, and good for you to for being so open. Yes a sad piece but written eloquently. Jacki -
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I rly like this.alot of what you said i understand completely.this is good. :]
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Thanks so much! I can't believe how many people could relate to this. Sad and comforting at the same time. It's nice to know I'm not alone; sad to know how many people suffer. I hope you're not one of them.
Blessed Be,
FaeRae
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well the poem is subtly pleaseant. Some lines have very good imagery. I like the line, "crackling in my brain." That was good...
Aint those pain management doctors awesome... yup you were right- they are professional drug dealers. Some doctors are idiots but hell I loved them that way. "Yup Doc... I really need that OxyC."
Anyways... taa... taa
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I wish you all the best in your recovery, Fae. You have the strength within yourself and with the thoughts and prayers of others, you can't fail.
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Thanks for stopping by to read and comment. Speaking from one addict to another, I am so sorry for your struggles. Only those who are addicted, have been addicted, or love one who is, can fully understand the horror of it. You are so right about the constant fear of relapse . . . it's the ghost that haunts you. Best of luck to you; stay strong & know that you are stronger than 99% of the people out there just by being a recovering addict . . .
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wow this was a really great write..ive been addicted to many things and i know the struggles that you faced/face because your never trully free from your addiction and it haunts you always wanting ti relapse..this poem was very touching and inspirational and i could really relate to this..keep writting your very talented and ill be checking out more of your work very very soon!
~Chrissy~
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This is truly an amazing piece. It hits you hard and fast and is full of emotion, you can feel the relief of the drugs in the first few lines and then it shifts just a little to those 'doubts' that the author is trying to push aside. You can feel that the author knows this is supposed to be temporary relief but then there is that need for the drug and the idea that they just really need it tonight and theres no reason to worry about what will come tomorrow. There is a clear idea that the author is focusing on the now and ignoring the possible futures and consequences of these actions. I love the word choice and the length of this poem is perfect.
My only criticism would be the length of the last few lines. You have a lot of shorter lines in the beginning of the piece that flow really well and then as you read on the lines get longer and it slows down the flow a little. This is only my opinion but I think this piece could use a little tweaking, especially in those last lines.
My favorite line was : "Oh God this feels like heaven,
this feeling swimming through my veins,
this bliss which moves and stirs me,"
just amazing. Thank you for sharing this!
~Laura
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Wow, you really, really got this. More than anyone else so far, you really understood it. I completely understand what you mean about the last few lines; I have a bad habit with that will all of my poetry. I have no idea why. My favorite line is the same as yours because that's the whole problem with addiction in a nutshell. It is utter peace and contentment flowing through your veins. It's a false peace and the price tag is heavey, though. But I am in a better place now and fighting with all that I've got to stay there. Thank you so much for your kind words.
FaeRae
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Well done!
Thank God there's something to ease the pain..it's a shame that what solves one problem creates another.
You told your story well. I hope you are able to kick your addiction.
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Well Done!
Thanks for the comments & for stopping by to read! Yes, I am grateful that there is something to ease the pain. As many problems as the drugs created for me, I tried to go drug free for a whole month. I learned two things: I am far stronger than I ever thought I could be and there is an amount of pain that the human body can NOT tolerate. As far as kicking the addiction - I can't believe I'm putting this out there for public consumption, but since this has seemed to touch/warn/comfort so many people I'll say it - I put myself in hospital last month and was able to go down to the smallest amount possible of the weakest painkiller. Yes, there is more pain, but my mind and my emotions are my own again. Thank-you, again.
FaeRae
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this works...
on so many levels... It was somewhat ambiguous to me at first and, until I read your author notes, I thought that is was about using a one night stand to distract one from life's disappointments...
I wish you luck in your endeavors - this was a touching composition, even though, at first, I misunderstood it...
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Thanks for reading & commenting. I never thought that this could be interpreted as a one night stand, but now that I re-read it, it really could be! Thanks, that gave me a chuckle and a really needed one! I'm glad you liked the poem.
Blessed Be,
Fae Rae
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amazing write my friend i know all to well the pains of addiction not an easy thing to kick. know you have ya friends support all the time and if you ever want to talk I will always write back. wish you all the best my friend
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I can't believe the response I've been getting from this. Obviously there are far more people involved in or affected by addiction than I thought. Your comments on my poem and your offer to talk were both very kind and very appreciated. Indeed, I am finding that talking about it has been the best therapy for my recovery. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I will have to stop by for a read on your page when I done responding to all these amazing comments!
Blessed Be,
Rae
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I want to say I am sorry. But I know I never liked hearing that because it was like, ok why would YOU be sorry. I can totall be with you on that boat. I have done everything and had everything done to me. You could see it in almost all my work. Good job. I can talk if u ever need someone
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I want to say I'm sorry . . . "
Thanks for reading and commenting. You mentioned that you could see "it" in all your work; I'll stop by and read more tonight. Thanks for the offer to talk; that's a true gift.
Blessings,
FaeRae
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I'm so sorry that happened to you...and it's not uncommon for this to happen....I was addicted to anything and everything but not accidently....but can still understand this piece....great work and keep writting!
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WEll done capturing of a struggle that is difficult. Sadly such wise doctor's have created a new dimlemma for people like myself and my partner that suffer from chronic, and often agonizing pain, for now most doctor's are loathe to prescribe pain medicatinos more than once in a great while. I have displayed to my doctors all that I am not addicted and do not use and abuse my meds and yet still I sit daily in pain, frustrated by their Frankenstein past. Ah wel i didnt mean to
this is a well written piece to be certain! Best of luck in this and all of your endeavors. Hetohke'e * 
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This is wonderfully written my friend.
I slammed meth for 10 1/2 years and so this hits home, hits home more than you think.
Addiction is a hard thing to live with, I struggle some days more than others.
You can check out some of my stuff cuz most of it has to do with my addiction.
I am nominating this for front page.
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You have done an amazing job here. You shared the experiance without...um...how to put this....this is dark and personal subject ....I got the seriousness without the weight of your burden....hope that makes sense....It is something I appreciate....I wish you all the best with your upcoming challanges...something tells me you will fare rather well.
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I don't know what to say! I am absolutely astounded at the response I've gotten to this. I woke up this morning and when I logged on I couldn't believe my eyes. This is the most honest thing I've ever written, and I've learned something from the responses: I am definately not alone in this pain. Sad and comforting at the same time. I am glad you "got" the flow; some people didn't, which sort of confused me, to be honest, as I thought the flow was okay. I hope your pain, whatever it is, eases soon.
Blessed Be,
FaeRae
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Cannot speak for an addiction to painkillers, but I do know how the pain feels and the brief respite that meds can give you. I guess that is why I put up with the pain- fear of the alternative.
Structurally, this is sound. I would suggest breaks between the thought, though. It would aid the reader.
Form wise, this works for me. It is easy going. I thought at first it was free form, as the rhythm did not kick in, but it appears it is not necessary for this; it flowed very well for me.
Overall, a quite enjoyable work. (Definitely not what I was expecting, from my experience with the Shameless box.)
My prayers are with you, that you can overcome this.
Thank you for sharing.
rous
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On "Numbing the Pain"
Thank you for stopping to read! On the rhyme flow: for some reason, when I read it out loud it flows beautifully. Maybe it's my punctuation here; I'm always so confused by grammar and how to use it in poetry and I know that's hurt my work in the past. As for your comments, I'm glad you are able to handle the pain without meds. It's definately a road best left untraveled. After my accident I had seven ruptured disks, two disk tears, a cracked tailbone and spondylolosis. I tried for a year to reject pain medication but eventually I gave in. I just couldn't take the pain anymore. I don't know that I'll ever be off of them, but I have fought my way down to just a few pills a day - which believe me is an improvement from the Soma Coma they had me on initially. I appreciate your prayers, more than you can know. The more I started sharing my story here at AP, the more people started praying for me, and do you know what? At the same time I started receiving dozens of prayers, my depression lifted, my pain eased, and I started seeing hope again. Isn't that divine? Makes me sure that there is a purpose to all this, and that is worth it's weight in gold.
Bless you,
Rae
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THIS IS BEAUTIFUL!!! your rhyme is perfect, i see it isnt forced. which is awesome. i dont think you need to explain why you were in hell like jesusfreak wanted you to do. your words are so nice and it hmmm...i cant think of the word, it just takes me away!
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This is Beautiful
Thank you so, so much. I was a bit awed this morning when I logged on and saw all the responses! This was a labor of love/hate. And you're right; I thought my author's notes explained briefly what the poem was about. Maybe I didn't go into enough detail, but that would take a book! I'm glad you got the message, though and thank you so much for your kind comments!
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i apologize maybe i should have read the author notes it still didn't take away from the excellence of the write nice job
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You capture your struggle well although you dont give enough details for a reader to understand what caused your hell and what gave you a vacation from it but thats okay poetry is a release and if it wokrs for you let the pen rest good write keep it up
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On "Numbing the Pain"
Thanks so much for your comments. I'm glad you liked and stopped to read & comment.
Blessings,
FaeRae
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Perfect
This poem is a beautiful poem and I'd like to see more poetry like this On a scale of one to ten I give it a ten.
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Thanks so much! Wow, a ten. I think that's a first for me here. I hope you know how much that means to me as this is probably my most honest work.
Blessings,
FaeRae
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What a explicable write you ahve done here and so many who are in the throes or have been in the throes of any addiction can relate..Yeah that opener of a line.."God that feels so good.." I can relate and the enemy lies and tells me to come on ya can feel that way again but in reality I was always chasing that first high...This is so true, being in the medical profession, prescriptions are so easily doled out.....keep sharing for you are helping any! Peace & Blessings my friend!
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On "numbing the pain"
Thanks for your kind comments. I was so surprised this morning to see how many people responded to and related to this. Being in the medical profession, I simply know you know what I'm talking about. Severe pain leads to meds which leads to "accidental" addiction which leads to depression, which leads to more pain. It's a circle that's almost impossible to break. But I am trying with every fiber of my being. For two years I was content to just let the meds wash me away on a peaceful tide of pain, but no more. The price tag is to much. I am trying!
Blessed Be,
FaeRae
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this is a good poem. I really love it. I really liked the oh God thiis feels like heaven line.
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Numbing the Pain
Thank you for commenting! That's my favorite line, too. It pretty much explains why that good feeling develops into one bad problem.
Blessings,
Rae
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There are so many souls out there ...
who may benefit from your writing. I am glad you verbalize your thoughts in such a coherent way, and for the Author's notes which clarify some meanings. Please never stop to try and solve your problems. You are growing towards healing spiritually and also physically. My prayers are with you every day, Rae.
Love
Myra
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I know that you're thoughts are with me often, I can feel them. I forgot to tell you (I was a bit down and crazy at the time) the night you told me you were praying for a million angels to come to me: that night I dreamed about five brilliant, white pillars of light surrounding my bed, stretching all the way up towards the heavens. Isn't that . . . divine? I think you must have God's ear. Thanks for the kind comments on this, and rest assured, I am, indeed, heading in the right direction, finally!
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I believe every word you say ...
for God shows his presence in healing dreams -- very often! May you always be aware of his divine Love for you, and also my love, precious One.
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