Again,
I am replaying old thoughts and memories in my head
Its making me feel old feelings again
The past makes me hurt
no matter how much I get over it
I always seem to look back because the past is what made me
I move on, I just never forget.
The pain, the hurt, the suffering
All of it
I just want to make it go away,
I never wanna hear any words that'll remind me of my past that no one knows about
I just want to erase it all. Not a secret to hide not a whisper
Longing to forgive, longing to forget....myself.
One lousy tear falls as I am quick to get rid of
"I am a man, real men do not cry."
As young as I can remember, thats what I was told
and I never forgot it.
The past was never kind to me
nor was it flattering.
It always haunted me and humiliated me
and again I'm worrying.
Again my thoughts are getting to me and its not pretty.
These images, and even my old thoughts from the past
that I still remember completely.
The words that I said to you
The words that I spoke, I hope you've never forgotten
Because I havent.
I wander if we've changed since then or is just a coincidence that I am thinking this now
Am I just thinking too much again, because I always seem to do that
My thoughts get the better of me and I have no choice but to write them down
Emotions fly and so do sweet harsh words of cruelty to my family members
I really dont fit in
But now-a-days who really does?
And now I want to quit before I begin questioning me and my existance, and my purpose for being
It never adds up and I never get an answer
Just more questions.
I'll just quit searching and make my own path.
My own living, my own fate.
No one can tell me to die, I'll decide.
Go ahead, prove me wrong, lets see how far you get...
Please tell me what you think
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"One lousy tear falls as I am quick to get rid of
"I am a man, real men do not cry."
As young as I can remember, thats what I was told
and I never forgot it.
The past was never kind to me
nor was it flattering.
It always haunted me and humiliated me
and again I'm worrying."
This really got too me.. deeper than skin deep. Hun real men are the ones who arent afraid to cry when it really hurts. The past.. it sucks that it cant be changed... but some people learn from theirs.. i know i did.. i learned... well i am rambeling now.. sorry
"I'll just quit searching and make my own path.
My own living, my own fate.
No one can tell me to die, I'll decide.
Go ahead, prove me wrong, lets see how far you get... "
This is fantastic... rebellion can save us. This is beautiful. Going against what is right to find yourself and to be yourself. Going against others to follow yourself. Why doesnt everyone do this? I love it... amazing. wonderfully written.... !!
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Thank you for the wonderful comment, it was very uplifting. I appreciate all everything you said, made me feel and know that someone did care. Thank you so much!
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well my phone broke so yea
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"I'll just quit searching and make my own path.
My own living, my own fate.
No one can tell me to die, I'll decide.
Go ahead, prove me wrong, lets see how far you get... " is my favorite part great job
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well... now im gonna make a point.. of flying over to were u live just too see u cry now
BUT
hopefully.. its not sadness... or pain..
unless u just stubbed ur toe.. then i'd have to laugh.. then give u a hug better -
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lol Your such a dork but I still love you anyway
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*sniffs* this is sad bro! aww so emotionfelt.. nd nd.. who said men cant cryy? u can cry all u want. ever need a shoulder to cry on,ill be here for u (even though..well.. tears on the keyboard might.. like..not work out) but u get the idea.
love love!
xox
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I get what you mean, I dont know maybe now that I've cried in front of my g/f(embrassing) it'll be a littler easier to cry in front of you, maybe i dont know if I ever get to see you and if you ever get me in the right moment at the right time lol God that'll be embrassing too.
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