Grinding Hips Lane

My smeared reflection glares at me
with enraged animosity at its very core
And then I realize, that it's only me,
and the hatred I've dealt upon myself
for so many years after my own defeat

It wasn't always like this, you know
I used to be beautiful; I laughed
Innocence is a flicker in the sunlight
before everything fades to black
My own light was snuffed out; I'm dead inside

Darling, what could you possibly see
in this lifeless form before you?
I am nothing but a used cadaver
marked with the disgrace of harlot
But you wouldn't have known that

My feculent secrets are not for your ears;
the pitch of my tormented screams
are only for my own to behold in the dark
Don't you dare start pitying me now
I have worked too hard for respect for myself
to be insulted in such a manner

You could never understand this ache;
it is the haunting of a heart shattered
before ever it had a chance to love
Don't tease me with your petty affections
I am far too chilled to feel your warmth

My thighs quake with overwhelming sensation;
one I will never be rid of all of my life
You have no hope of helping me;
just forget about me while you still can
Don't utter the words that would slay you

No one can love me, sweetheart
I am far too gone for even that
Of all the laboring I've donned myself,
I could never escape the never ending judgment
of your piercing gaze; I am lost to even you

Baby, whisper in my ear once more
I'll take a walk with you down to
grinding hips lane, but just this once
I'm wounded though, so we'll have to go slow
Make me feel like I deserve to scream your name

Just don't expect me to be there
when you wake up in the morning, doll,
'cause I'll be long gone to a place
even you can't reach me at;
frigid and choked upon breathlessness

I'll be dead