Let Her Go Part II

That one woman that I love and my best friend is the best thing and the worst thing that has happened to me, the best thing because I’ve never felt this deeply about anyone before and it is a wonderful experience because you get those butterflies in your stomach, and you feel all warm inside, I love her more than anything in the world, and I get that feeling every time I see her beautiful face, I’ve never seen such divine beauty in such a woman before, with that brown hair that feels like silk and smells of the essence of a high quality woman’s shampoo, her eyes that glisten and shine I swear I think she polishes them every night because wow do they shine, her lips full and glossy, her cheeks are rose red, her skin a beautiful creamy white and feels soft, and in my eyes she has the body of a goddess, and she smells great every day, and wow does she have the most beautiful singing voice I’ve ever heard, like I said divine beauty, and her personality is she is nice, kind hearted, and she cares about everyone, she has a split personality but so do I everyone does but some people haven’t unlocked it yet and the funny thing is my split personality likes her split personality but her split personality likes someone else’s split personality, I look for personality the most looks are just a bonus, but of all the girls I’ve ever liked she knocks them off the planet, but anyways back to the point, every time I see her face I feel like the happiest man in the world, and the worst because also every time I see her face I feel like the loneliest man in the world, because I get a heart stabbing, stomach exploding feeling because there is no way in hell that I’ll ever have her, because she doesn’t like me in that way, I’ve given her everything a woman could ask for, but I’ve received nothing in return, but I don’t blame her, I blame myself for getting too close, and no matter how hard I try to drift away form her I can’t, if I could change the way I feel about her I would but I can’t, I act like nothing is wrong, but everyone can see the knife sticking out of my heart, every boyfriend that she has ever had since I’ve known her I’ve been jealous of them, everyone wants what they can never have and I’ve found what I can never have, her, I’m just glad for the time that I’m here I get to see the most beautiful woman in the world every day, I would be forever grateful to the gods and goddesses if I could see her every day for the rest of my life if you know what I mean, but the gods and goddesses can’t give me that control free will, no one can and for that I’m glad, because you would be forcing people to do what they are obligated to do, I may be depressed every day but I just want her to have true happiness even if it is not with me as long as she is happy that is all that matters, and yes I will admit that I cry every night in my room for her, but I hope she lives a happy life even if I can’t be a part of it, and no I don’t want anyone’s sympathy and I don’t want anyone’s “oh she will come to you in time” because she won’t, I just want her to know that I love her and her to live a happy life with whoever her heart desires. NAKITA K HAUSAFUS
I LOVE YOU AND I ALWAYS WILL