I Don't Want to Die Now

I just got the news today. This is it I knew this day would come. I find myself wondering what has gone so wrong. I wonder if God would let me in HIS kingdom of heaven that of only stories I had been told. I want to see what would of happened next if I hadn't of been told. I wonder what my family will do when I drop the bomb, what retched news, so bold. I wonder of my bitter end will it be dark and cold. I wish that I could spend more time with husband, family and friends. Why me O'LORD what did I do so wrong? Why take me from this life, some how I feel it isn't right. I'll tell my nephew I love him so, like no one will ever know. That even when I'm gone for good he can still pretend I'm on the phone. To my sister, you mean the world to me, your all that I hold dear. My father whom I love so much, I reached the stars before you, I'll see you in a few years. My mother I don't know you all that well but I love you to the ends of the earth and back, It was a great couple of years. My brother I wish that I could know your child but I'll be gone before she's here. Tell her that I'll be watching her. I hope she has our ears. To my other sister, don't be so nieve, follow your heart and your true love will some how follow near. I love you most of all cause you somehow always need me the most to pull you away from the fire. You know it's hot so don't get to close, cause when you get burned I won't be there to heal your wound. To my husband, my world and joy, my heart,and soul. I'll miss you most of all, if is wasn't for you pulling me through those rough patches in the road I wouldn't have lasted this long. I wish we could have had children, I know that's what you would want, some part of me left behind. I love you dearly even to my end. I hope that you would search for me when you cross over, just like you did back then. I love you all and I miss you already.......