~Atempt At A Poem~

Cut my wrists
And black my eyes
And make me wish I couldn’t breathe
Make our love bittersweet
Make me bleed my own tears

I shouldn’t try to change your mind
But the thoughts explode inside me

I hurt myself with thoughts of you
The love of us that blinds me

I can’t explain my thoughts aloud
For I hope, I have not hurt you
I wish, that you find someone more worthy of your presence

I hate to say I love you too because I know deep down I don’t deserve it
I wish I could apologize for all of the pain I’ve caused you

This is my sorry for the ones I’ve obviously hurt
I’ve been blindsided by my fears
The love of you controls me
I don’t know what to say to you
My thoughts are still hidden

They will always be
I will take them to my grave
They will never, be spoken aloud
That may lead to my death
Which I know that I deserve

But, you wouldn’t know the tears I’ve shed
Have been for you alone.

Spin me around
Cut me dry
Kiss my pain away

I feel so dumb
Writing down these words that I will never become
If only you knew right now, that my thoughts are still in control

I wish to tell you how I feel, but that will only kill us more.
Even more than I have this day.

I say goodbye
In this silent prayer, I plead
That you will try to forget me
So when you find me bleeding
I hope to god that you’ll forgive me