How Many?

how many times did i tell you
is what they often say
then they hit me again
each and every day

how mant times can i feel you
lying inside of me
can i feel the pulse
spluttering inside of thee

how many ways can you slice
your perfectionist skin tonight
will it get even deeper
after the bloody fight

how many types of feelings
can you expell me from
can you teach me rage
and anger from someone

how many things can i loose
from my buried heart
i can feel the throbbing
as they pull me apart

how many days go by
before i forget them all
can't keep up anymore
here i go - i fall

how many positions can i lay in
before i go to bed
it's hot and cold inside
i feel as though i'm dead

how many times can you
push inside of me
can you feel the death
breeching inside to see

how many are there
lusting for the pain
how many times will you scream
or cry out my fucking name

how many times can i kill
either you or myself again
are there ways to suicide
just tell me how or when

how many thrusts can i give you
before i knock you dead
how many shots can i fire
before i hit your head

how many times will they call out
my stupid parents inside
how many times will i collaspe
into Kyle's eyes

how many ways can i be killed
just tell me once more
how many times are there locked away
as i'm lying on the floor

how many killings
happen in the night
the darkness envelops my screams
keeping me from flight

how many times will he yell
for me to come back in his arms
how many times will i fall first
before tripping the alarms

how many types of energy
are buried inside my bones
however many times are
you calling me from the phones

how many chances
are left for you and me
just tell us
we'll go carefully....