The Beginning of your End

confined to nothing
you show nothing
you bare nothing
you think nothing
you hold onto nothing
held by your regrets
your fears
you're blind
you're stupid
you're gone
you're finished
everything's different
so you break
shaking and waiting
for nothing and noone
to never come
never show
never help and never heal
you take
you take your life and shatter it
you break it
until no more do you breathe
youre only left with a hell bent dagger
boud by the fire of a darkened soul
drenched in your blood
your blood that is so much as staind with your pain
how long will you suffer?
you lay there
curled up in a ditch
broken
soul-less
and hopeless
rain covers your body
making it numb
so no more do you have to feel
you forget and your forgotten
you suffer and your silent
your torn and your lifeless
your strong but you want to give up
how long can you hold it?
take it?
feel it?
bare it?
how long can you die?
how long can you hide?
how long can you cry?
you run down the streets with stones upon your feet
never hesitating and never looking back
still rain drentching every inch of your body
you fall
fall into a corner
never wanting to leave
never wanting to believe
to believe that you've been defeated
by the very thing you tried to resist
the very thing you tried to over come
you look
you look into the eyes of what you have done
who you've become
you hate it
but what can you do?
the pain buried in the depths of your soul
creeps in through the veins like poison
souring through your body
slowly killing you
slowly you die in pain
what can you say?
what can you say when your voice is gone
and your mouth is sewn shut
how can you feel?
how can you feel with the pain souring through your body
over comes you
and your body is left numb
how do you change?
how do you change it when your destiny has been placed upon stone
how do you live?
how do you live when you have nothing to live for?
how do you break free
when you've built a flawless wall
you start to run again
but you fall
down on your hands and knees
you try to stand
but your pain has consumed you
what can you do?
everything you know is falling apart
but you refuse to give in
you've fought so hard
what can you do?
when today is the beginning of your end.
you stand up gathering what's left of you
you pull out your dagger
with your own blood dropping onto the ground
and seeping through the cracks
as if acid tearing through it
you grip the dagger
holding it so your blood no longer falls on the ground
but dripps upon your wrists
signifying your pain
the very thing everyone has been too blind to see
slowly you begin to walk
readding your self for what you are about to do
you walk into the woods
letting the trees cover your every step
you stop
and no more can you see the road
you are only surrounded by the trees
you take the dagger and a deep breath
plunging it into your heart
you fall loosing your strenght and your breath
you can no longer feel
you take the dagger from your heart
letting your blood flow never to stop bleeding
the dagger drops
and today is the beginning of your end
your pain became too unbareable
and everyone was too busy to help
to blind to see
to see your pain
to see that you were falling
to see that your only strenght
the one thing that kept you going
was knowing that someone cared
but when everyone stopped caring
your strength was no more
and there became the beginning of your end
to die believeing no one cared
is in its self pain
to loose the one thing you had left
the one thing that kept you alive
the one thing that kept your body from becoming numb
is in its self torture
but to hide your pain behind a fake smile
a fake laugh
and no one to see through you
is in its self...
the symbol...
of your death.