I Want You To Know This.

Everyday I see something that remind me of you.
I hear your laugh and turn around.
That sweet, but fake sound.
Often, I think I see you.
But as I get close, a stranger comes into view.
I want to hate you. Hate you for making me miss you so much.
I know you were aching, I could have been your crutch.

But how can you hate the one I love.

I wish you could hear me when I say I miss you, I love you, I want you, I need you.
You were my world.
You took my heart with you when you swallowed the pills.
I've told you time and time again not to mix alcohol with medication.

You never listen though.

You were always your own person and only you knew best.
So Mr. Know-It-all, what am I to do.
I can't cope with out your love.
I cant live with out you around me.
I can't breathe because I know you'll never hold me.
I will not move on.
I will never find love again.
How can I when I still love you.
I adore everything about you.
I want you to know this.
I love you.
I always will.

And.... I'll see you soon.