My Depression

Dear Joel,
It doesn't matter how I feel
When you are within reach
Because when I look at you, babe
You leave me without speech
You make me forget all the things
That always get me down
All the things that haunt my thoughts
Leave when you're around
I couldn't pen my words
To properly describe
The whirlwind of love
That I feel inside
And i know how much i love you
But words just can't explain
The way my heart skips a beat
The way you make it all okay
The way your very presence
Takes away the pain
The way, babe, you make me feel
No. Words just can't explain
But you think somehow I feel this way
About some other guy
I just don't undertsand it
And it makes me want to die
I love you, babe, can't you see
No other guy can make me feel
No other guy can make me smile
No other guy can make me real
You are the only one, love
Who warms the ice within my heart
You are the only one, babe
Who gives me will to start
You stop the pain you make me smile
And you make me fly above
Above the nithmare of my past
You are the one I love
And I could say a thousand times
I could tell you how I feel
I could say "I love you"
But I want you to know it's real
When I say those words to you
I speak it from my heart
My feeling for you are not lies
And they cannot be torn apart
And neer should another guy
Ever interfere
For you, babe, are my truest love
Losing you is my biggest fear
Please don't leave me now, love
I don't want you to ever go
God, and I'm so sorry
I just wanted you to know
That even though there's other guys
That I talk to or that I know
There is only one guy
Who I hope won't ever go
You, babe, are the only one
Who I love with all my heart
And no one can ever stop that
No guy can tear that apart
For when I close my eyes to sleep
It's you who holds my hand
Because you're the only one I love
The only one who understands
Please, dear, don't forget this
I love you too much for words
That every time I see you
I can fly among the birds
I love you, babe, don't let me go
You're the only one for me
And always in a crowded room
You're the only one I see
Words just can't explain my love
As I have said before
And even though this fact is true
I couldn't love you more
And I know I fucked up big time
And I can't take that away
But, babe, I'm just so sorry
I love you is all I can say
And I hope this poem means something
And I hope you can forgive
Because without you, babe, I'm nothing
Without you, I can't live
So I love you, babe, remember that
For you are the first thing on my mind
You are the last thing as I drift to sleep
You are the best thing I can find
All in all I love you
You will always be my only
Without you I love no one
Without you I am lonely
I hope my words have made a point
Have left an impression
I love you, dear, and I'm sorry
You lift me from my depression
I'm sorry, love, for doing this
And I hope you will not go
So I close now with apology
(And I love you more than you know)
Love,
Carly