I thought to say "we better not"
seconds before your hand
unclasped my bra.
I opened my mouth
to say "I don't really want to"
but effortlessly your hand
moved over my belt,
and as if by some cruel magic
it was on the floor.
I finally spoke
"Please don't"
but your tounge stiffled my words
as it burrowed deep
between my teeth
Now I'm screaming "NO!"
so when you finish ripping out
my soul
at least I can say
"I told him no..."
Author notes
why do rape victims always feel like its their fault... maybe if someone can answer this for me.... then i can stop blaming myself...
I probably could have made this more intense and better... but as it is this was hard enough to write... so I'd rather not further distort the painful memory into some dismembered fragment of speech I attempt to call "poetry"
A contest entry
- YOUR MOST PAINFUL EXPERIENCE by bitter scarecrow.
750 points, ended April 3, 2007, 12 entries
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Please tell me what you think
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Wow.
I like this. It's so blunt, but you still manage to get great imagery. -
I can't say I understand what you were put through, but this, even though it is very simple, pinched at my heart painfully.
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I think Betsy said it very well! And I'll second the, "You're a strong, beautiful, intelligent woman and you'll find the right one in time You're wonderful!
I love you."
Dad
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i would call this poetry
Good poetry at that, i like ths.
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I cant even begin to express what is going through my head right now. TALK TO ME! you cant let something like this ruin future relationships. I did and look at me now, I'm a mess and still in love with a boy that i dated but refused to get "close" with. If i've learned anything, its that you cant blame yourself, because in doing so, you're saying that good people ask for evil to be done to them. I refuse to believe that that's true and i would like to think, that as my big sister who consoled me through my "experience", you would know that rape is never the victim's fault. Never.
Your loving sister
Ice
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wow
You should never blame yourself for rape. Rape victim feel like its their fault because they think 'if I had done something differently, I could have stopped it.' But most of the time the raper has already set their mind and almost nothing the victim will do will distract them from their "task", so unfortunatly it happens. The best thing to do is to try to keep living life to the fullest and treat every relationship as if it were gold.
I hope you recover from this, its horrable. And its true, way to many people female and male have this happen.
Women who are raped are sometimes labled 'slut' or 'whore' and told that they actually wanted it. How incredibly untrue! Thank you so much for sharing this pain. Remember
oesn't matter if you didn't say anything, this is NOT your fault at all.
Keep your chin up.
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it was rough for a while... but i can tell that after a few more years and breakdowns i will one day be able to completely trust in a relationship.
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I would think it's out of embarrassment - which is totally undeserved, but society seems to think that the woman put themselves in a situation that they should not have been in ... so unfair and unjust. And then they forever feel that if they open their mouths they will be judged and regarded with that A on their chest.
Thanks for sharing such a painful experience
and hopefully you realize that you are not alone and only one of MANY that go through something like that.....
MANY!!!!!!
Good luck in the contest, but more importantly good luck in finding a way to recover emotionally from the experience - and you know (as always) that I am here (with big a$$ ears) to listen anytime! I went through a similar situation in high school but i stopped it (in a terrible way - ugh) lol quite funny actually though now that I can look back 25 years ago.
You're a strong, beautiful, intelligent woman and you'll find the right one in time You're wonderful!
I love you, Betsy
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thank you betsy...
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