Smile On My Face

Today it is snowing,
And I feel cold inside.
I don't know what to think...
When will the ice stop falling?

I feel alone sometimes,
Locked up in myself.
I try to come out of this shell-
But the hole is too small.

So many things plague my mind.
Family friends, the cold falling
From the sky all around.
I can't seem to break the ice.

My mother, I know she loves me,
Though she never really tells me.
She looks at me, looks through me,
But she never really sees me.

My lover, I never see him,
He's always away in the sun.
I can't really get to him...
I am trapped under the snow.

My father, oh how I love him.
And I know he loves me.
We used to talk and play...
When he wasn't so angry.

Mostly I am sad,
And as cold as the world,
With nothing, nothing at all,
But gray blankness in my soul.

I stare at myself, my reflection
In the mirror, the one people say is "beautiful."
My blue eyes shimmer with my unshed tears,
And my heart cries out with mourning.

But the Son...He warms this day.
He parts the clouds from my soul.
He wipes the frozen tears from my face...
He tells me, "Have faith.  Trust me."

Then I am always happy,
Like a ray of sun on the earth.
I am in his arms, and in Your arms,
I feel absolutely complete.

Free on Your earth!
Free to live for You,
Free to catch the colors of any rainbow...
Free to do as I choose.

I run and I leap,
I laugh and I scream,
I splash through the melted ice.
Today is a brand new, sunny day.

No amount of fantasy could
Get me away from sadness,
And nothing could get me away from this.
Only You are my Happiness, my Freedom.

I love those times, those very few times,
That I have a smile on my face.
People tell me I'm beautiful, oh so beautiful...
When a smile lights up my face.