Looking back at it now,
My heart was ripped and torn,
Between what my life once was,
And what it would never be again.
I sat uneasily with you that day,
Your idiosyncratic nature bloomed,
"Don't cry for me,"your lips uttered,
But your heart told me something else,
"I'll miss you now and forever,"
Was my quiescent reply,
It was the only absolute
In that moment.
I watched your life deteriorate,
Helpless, I was on the sidelines,
"If nothing else, I'll hold your hand,"
My heart softly whispered,
As tears flowed down my cheeks,
Waving goodbye to your soul,
It was the only absolute
In that moment.
I'd never dream of the day,
That you wouldn't be with me,
"Would you offer me your strength?"
And I'd only wish and pray I could,
"Could You take his pain away?"
I let escape my breath,
I wished for this absolute
In only that moment.
Before my eyes, a year would pass,
I'd miss you more and more,
"Why'd you leave me all alone?"
My eyes would reach to the heavens,
I'd beg them for an answer,
But the stars are always silent,
And this was the only absolute
In that moment.
Two years would quickly go by,
And the stars remain silent always,
"I'm learning to live without you,"
My solemn voice would whisper to the wind,
I'd have to learn to stand on my own,
And ask to trust someone again,
As my final absolute
In this moment.
Author notes
R.I.P. Dad (April 16th 2005)
Written solely for this contest, this poem inspired all the things I felt in the last few years. Mind you, I don't know how much of it makes sense, cuz as I've said before, "My mind sees the world so vividly, but my hands have a hard time expressing these images. My words are not enough to do justice to any of this..."
Father, I'll never be the same without you. I was forced to grow way too soon; leaving behind fragmented memories, and a lot of pain. Sorry I wasn't the kid you expected me to be. I love you even now. If we meet again, I'll consider myself duly blessed. If we never do, I'm sorry I never said goodbye.
A contest entry
- YOUR MOST PAINFUL EXPERIENCE by bitter scarecrow.
750 points, ended April 3, 2007, 12 entries
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HEY GOOD JOB
i really like this poem and i know the true pain that this poem relates to, with the passing away of your dad.realy good poem and u'll hear from me soon
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