That night...

An unfading desire, (7)
Heart impaled upon pire (8)
Hoping this love wont retire (8)
Kindling my old fire (6)
A fantasy made true (6)
Because of the likes of you. (7)

Thoughts deep as sin.  (4)
Doors locked to never let me in, (8)
I know I want to, (5)
But I feel its not my cue (7)
to grab her or make her mine- (7)
shes more than divine- (5)
A presence made to shine. (6)

Dashed, (1)
and starting from the past, (6)
two years ago, I knew this wouldn’t last- (9)
Your’s matched with my liking (6)
with the strength of a Viking (7)
and a thousand miles of hiking. (9)

I’ve become the desire forgotten, (10)
left rotten (3)
with unstoppable dreams (6)
of things (2)
that could have been (4)
so instead I dream with a pen. (8)

I am an evil (5)
that has found his sequel. (6)
An evil of greatness, (6)
shes placeless, (3)
not tasteless (3)
and it was me who got myself into this mess. (12)
I find it a test of my manhood, (9)
I tried all I could (5)
to see her with others, (6)
they happened to be close as brothers. (9)
Now I feel im undercover (8)
and she doesn’t know. (5)
Does she? I don’t let it show.(7)

She thinks shes a slut, (5)
but id build her a hut. (6)
If she were mine, (4)
it would be a dashed line. (6)
Cuddle with me, (4)
I cuddle with thee (5)
and live happily. (5)
She could have others, (5)
if I were hers- (4)
I could be locked in a cage (6)
without rage- (3)
let out to play (4)
with her all day. (4)
A grand life with no waste (5)
and perfect taste. (4)
No need to make haste, (5)
but itd be nice if you would paste (9)
me back where I belong. (6)
Please.. Let me know if im wrong. (7)

I don’t mean to hurt you, (6)
if I didn’t mean to desert you, (9)
but I know you found another. (8)
Your perfect lover- (5)
He resides deep below me  (7)
with his great photography. (7)
Such things wont last long (5)
as his closed mind remains strong. (7)
Two fish in a barrel (6)
waiting for your word to go sterile. (9)
Both looking for a place by your side, (9)
wishing there was room left beside you. (9)
But I feel to leave is my new cue. (9)

Another is a hippie, (7)
And I find it shifty (6)
Since we were all tight. (5)
I remember it was night-(7)
when I died inside. (5)
Tears I tried to hide (5)
So instead I sighed (5)
That night I heard the moans (6)
Underneath the groans (5)
Coming from beyond that door, (7)
When I realized she was a whore. (8)

I back off for your need. (6)
I take heed (3)
in your actions (4)
and make my retractions (6)
to stay strong in your faction. (7)
I rely on you (5)
to hear my problems of few, (7)
but how can i tell you this (7)
without slit wrists (4)
kuz I think you’de give two shits (7)
n id lose it all (5)
and take the fall. (4)
this is my reality, (7)
my greatest fatality. (7)
And I’m damned to see you (6)
are just part of my fantasy… (8)

I’m now more than just hardly a voyeur, (10)
Wishing to become your dream destroyer (10)
So I can be more than just the toy or (10)
A waste… Waiting for you on the foyer. (10)