Help.
Please.
I need you.
Whoever you are.
I can't do this alone.
But that's the problem here.
Now that I'm alone,
I can't move on.
Things don't make sense.
I'm hurting constantly.
My emotions are up and down.
I can't control them.
So much I want to say,
So much I can't say.
My love is so strong,
I want to tell him.
I want to apologize,
Though I did nothing wrong.
Why doesn't he love me?
What changed?
Why?
How do I get past this?
How can I differentiate
The lies from the truth?
How do I trust anyone again?
Why does everyone always hurt me?
What is wrong with me?
Am I not good enough?
I gave him my all,
Yet he turned his back,
After a year of my life
Was spent solely on him.
I want to call him
And cry to him.
I want him to tell me
Not to worry,
Not to think negative.
That it's going to be okay.
That he's going to fix it.
That the bigger the obstacle
The stronger our love.
I want to get past this,
But I know he won't.
I can't do this to myself anymore.
I can't keep holding on.
Yet I don't have the will power
To let go.
How could I?
My stomach is in knots.
I can't think straight.
One minute I think I'm fine
And the next I literally
Want to disappear.
I want to get away from it all.
I want to turn back time.
I want to be happy again.
I want him to be happy,
But with me.
Not anyone else,
But me.
I want answers.
I want to improve us,
Though we are no longer.
Please,
Someone just help me.
Help get me through.
God, hear me.
Take the pain away.
Please.
I'm begging you.
I can't take this anymore.
Save me from the hurting.
Help.
Please.
I need you.
Whoever you are.
I can't do this alone.
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help... ...what am i supposed to do??????? i cant even explain myself anymore. and the people i know just dont understand. i need...him...
Please tell me what you think
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I understand trust me, I really do. If you ever need anything, im here for you. I know how hard things can be. Btw i like the way u wrote this poem
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i understand
i understand because i am going through a simular thing me and my ex went out for 2 and a half years and he broke it off i loved him more than life it self i loved him more than anybody but now i see him with his new gf and i litterally cry i want to kick her ass just for being with him but i know that if he is happy then i should be to and its gonna be hard really hard but you will be able to get over this and if this love is meant to be then it will find its way back to you
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First Ill pray for you. Next I'll rate your poem:this poem shows you grieving what has been gone a long time. The love you want and need died. Now the hard part finding the way to heal. You cant heal if you don't let go. You must face the truth and reality.
Harsr words I'm sure and you don't want to hear them, but to embrace you and say all will be ok and will work out, would be telling you a lie and setting you up for a far greater fall and more pain.
I think you will find many of us that have walked the path you described. Just the fact you wrote of this so detailed says you knowthe truth, yet are still unwilling to face it.
Sorry your in such pain, but time will heal. Your as strong as your writing so the cure will arrive soon.
Rose
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I am praying for you. I am praying that you love YOURSELF enough to see that he's not worth this pain and the self doubt you are wallowing in. No human being has the right to make you feel that way.
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the problem is that your life was spent soley on someone other than God whenever you put your faith into the world they always disapoint you put your trust and obiedience in Gid and he will see you through have faith in him and he will put you with the person that will love you the way you need to be love
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I too, know this pain.........
and the pain will eventually subside!!You need to go to God in prayer and be willing to let this guy go if that is what he tells you to through his spirit!!Surround yourself with family and friends you can talk to who will be positive about your situation!! Try volunteering at a children's hospital or somewhere that draws near to your heart, you'd be amazed how helping others will help heal your heart and put things into better perspective as far as importance. I wish I would have done this twenty years ago but I didn't listen to the advise I was given and now I have a daughter and am a single mom working 60hours a week trying to support us. So when the weekend comes I am just too tired to volunteer at all. Try and shift your focus off yourself and onto someone who is worse off than you are. I know that your pain is real and it hurts so bad right now but if you just have the character to let this guy know that he is not going to destroy your life, it will give you a sense of self worth. And who knows....one day when you turn a corner.... the love of your life may be standing there looking right into your eyes....And aren'tyou worth being with someone who is faithful and treats you like a princess? Darn right you are!! You are a child of the king!!!That means you are royalty and deserve nothing less!!!!Good luck and may your heart heal soon!!!!~~Toni~~ -
Come on Life goes on...
No matter who comes and goes life goes on so my angel don't let yourself down for someone not fitting y0ou left you GOD has better plans for you Consider this IF you still hung upto him you will rather not take note of someone made just for you so little angel take nothing to heart and just have a little faith in your heart GOD has great plans FOr you just be patience and wait who knows whats next and remember you Don't need anyone so bad that the world will stop and You need your thoughts to be more mature now that every relationship needs both the faces of the coin like you cannot clap with one hand so let him go he was just not fit for your true love you have someone else in waiting....
Faith is enough to know God Not miracles
Life is beautiful
if only you see it that way....
Sunnyand by the way you do have great talent your talent should inspire you to write on you need to write more constructively like you did here but use positive subjects your life will glow 
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