More Than a Son's Indifference

Father, you thought you could push me away
Hide from the darkness and pursue the day
But believe when I say I’ll find a way
I always have done so and you will obey.
  Think of me as a child
  As an untamed boy
  In need of your fire
  Which burns my soul.

Father, do not force yourself, there’s no need
To harm yourself and then blame it on me
I am far stronger, I have always been
Can you see what power viciousness brings?
  Think of me as a child
  As a boy in chains
  In need of your fire
  Which I long to claim.

Father, you can always just close your eyes
If you don’t want to see your son’s delight
Driven by mad and ungodly desire
Roaming the streets under the blackened sky.
  Think of me as a beast
  As a filthy child
  Whom you have set free
  And fed with your fire

Father, hey father, time for you to wake
Hey, stop crying, there’s no reason to shake
“Feels like I’m drowning in a dried up lake”?
How I adore these metaphors you make.
  Think of me as a beast
  As a raging monster
  Whom you have set free
  And you have fostered

Father, there’s no need to hide, have no fears
No one will harm you as long as I’m here
Dry your eyes and wipe away all your tears
God doesn’t hear your prayers, I won’t disappear.
  Think of me as your son
  Causing you pain
  As your flesh and blood
  You cannot disclaim

Father, look at me and see who I am
And maybe you won’t presume that I’m damned
You’ll see that it’s you who has me condemned
So you can’t hear when I whisper “je t’aime”
  Think of me as your son
  Filled with desire
  As your flesh and blood
  I have claimed your fire.