I want To Love You ~ A Freewrite

I so want to love you. Love you in the way that two adults who care about each other can love. That ultimate high of adrenaline that pumps through you once you've finally found that person in your life that just means so much to you.

I've loved you since I was around 19. That once in a lifetime dying kind of love. The kind that poets write about and those who are single can only dream about. That fantastic once every lifetime kind of feeling. Yet still you'll never love me back the way I love you. You concider me offlimits, someone since we grew up together you could never develope those sincere feelings for.

I'm a subject not worth touching. Something that is set above and away from the rest of the world. You know I have that sort of love for you. I believe it frightens you as well. You know that you could love me if you let yourself do it. That you could fall head over heels.

Yet still I'm afraid as well. I could continue to push the issue. Write you love sonnets or send you poseys of flowers over and over again. Still I think it wouldn't advance my cause. I'm simply not the sort of person you are or could be interested in. I'm a convience of sorts. And until I become something different I believe that nothing will change between us. Thats okay, right now I'm content in myself, the love I have for you.

I love you.