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My Gray-Eyed Demon

What once was so great,
never really was.
The thought of love made me blind,
to this feeling of being numb.
I never had what I thought I had,
what everyone else thought we had.

I jumped in the water headfirst,
yet I forgot to breath before I went under.
Oxygen quickly cut from my brain,
I failed to see what was really going on,
I failed to see everything.

His eyes once warm,
now his stare so cold.
Voice sharp and painful,
smooth when wanting.
Tension building as I started to see,
that the girl I was with him,
was never really me.

Deeper and deeper I plunged,
fighting and turning for what once was mine.
I struggled to regain back that feeling,
but the water was so cold.

His touch burned my skin,
yet it had so much power I broke.
I didn't want to face reality,
I wanted to be ignorant, unpained.
My words meant nothing,
his thoughts were king.

Darker and darker,
as I sank further.
Drowning in what was supposed to be something fun,
but so terrifying on the inside.

I didn't sleep,
my performance was slipping.
I couldn't be happy anymore,
I couldn't feel anything.
I had to get out,
but he threw me out of it.

Up, up, and farther up I went,
and as I broke the water I gasped for my breath.
It was over, the abuse and drowning was over,
I could be me, the real me, again.

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  • earthstar
    April 6, 2007
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    Very Good

    Up, up, and farther up I went,
    and as I broke the water I gasped for my breath.
    It was over, the abuse and drowning was over,
    I could be me, the real me, again.
    I like the ending I too have felt that way. It does get better. This is done wonderful. Enjoyed reading it very much.

  • Moonlit-Reveries
    March 16, 2007

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    I can relate to some parts of this right now, especially the denial part and not wanting to face the reality of the relationship. Especially this part: I didn't want to face reality,
    I wanted to be ignorant, unpained.
    My words meant nothing,
    his thoughts were king.

    You captured this feeling so well and I loved your water metaphor and how it tied the whole poem together. Your ending is especially empowering. Very nice piece you penned here.


  • eyes of the sea.
    March 15, 2007
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    Was this what u felt while together all the time, or just new findings cuz u 2 r over? great poem cait, cant say much since im about to write a column, just getting rid of all my feelings, pleaz read!