Rape Victim

My life will only shatter if you want it to,
I will only bruise if it’s convenient for you,
You take me by a thread,
Fuck me and grabbed to my hand like you really care,
I’m not your shoulder,
I’m not your pity,
But I still can’t ignore you,
Still tears stream for you,
What’s wrong with me that I actually give a shit about what you think?
What’s wrong with me that I find no one to care for me?
What’s wrong with me that my affinities your pain you keep causing me,
What’s wrong with us all that existence means nothing?
I stand to you so you can undermine,
It never matters that I’m human,
It will never matter that you consume my soul,
I fear only to be let down at the most,
I hope for the same and slain it all,
Tell me to run to you,
So I fall on my face,
Tell me to touch you,
Call me your avidity since you just want one thing,
Baby get on your stomach,
Baby act like you want this,
Baby lick me and brace for your sodomy,
Baby why can’t you do better,
Just grab me by the hair and get it anyway,
Beauty is a joke and its only there to be distorted,
Is this my nightmare, shake me, just get me out,
Save me I’m stuck here I’m trapped in such a small caliber,
Pull me from your enormous kingdom you rank so highly in,
Abdicate from your fucking pedestal,
Why wont you run to me,
Why can’t you feel for me?
I can no longer bleed these tears for you,
I can no longer stand up to you,
I’m fragile; I’m everything you've ever hated so just let me go,
Alone at night as I still crave the hurt I know too well,
Holding on tight to these sheets as you masturbate to my weakness,
Perverted indication where haven't I been,
I can no longer lie down at night and abide,
Never going to sleep to be held or caressed,
So soak my body in this shame I believe I deliver to myself,
What’s wrong with me that I feel its all my fault,
What’s wrong with me when I disgrace any enchantment?
What’s wrong with me that I’m not good enough to be loved?
What’s wrong with me that you afflict your wrath and I love you like a drug,
What’s wrong with this ridiculous subservience to embed more confusion?
Remember I’m your possession,
Drench me in your sweat and cum,
Remember your nothing but a joke to me,
Just a lingering side effect as I’m coming down from you,
Rapture me again please any validation,
No don't do that, don't touch that please I’m just a little girl,
But you've invaded my life,
As I pretend to never give a shit,
As I harden more with every bit of submission,
Tell me this can never work out and promise me nothing,
Annihilation of my innocence thanks a lot for these scars,
Don’t worry I’ll always put you ahead of me,
Sweet dreams little girl and go back to sleep.